NL- This is the letter Shelley talks about in her note to me. Some info that was too personal about people not involved in this debate has been removed.
Dear Shelley,
Yesterday, I videotaped an in-depth interview with Maddy, in Visalia.
I know everything — the booze, the pills, the weeks in rehab,
The fact that you told her that if her baby came out black she should get rid of it.
The fact that EVERYONE on your team knew all about your addictions and covered it up.
The fact that you kept Maddy drunk and high on pills (in the "Recovery House"!) to control her so that you could use her as the Pink Cross "poster child", to raise money off of her.
The fact that you and Ricky told Ann Marie that God would cure her of her AIDS if she joined Pink Cross.
The fact that Jan is now trying to go around your back and supplant you with AHF and others — she too thinks you’re a sinking ship and she wants to make her own name.
The reason why you and Gary sent XXXXXX home.
How you sent Jenni’s child away because it was annoying to you.
I know that your whole life story is fiction — because I got the true story — complete with documentation — from the people who knew you and Gary back then — and from your own family.
FROM YOUR OWN FAMILY.
I know everything.
You remember this message to [your brother] Chris last year:
”YOU WANT ME TO TELL THE PUBLIC ABOUT YOUR RECKLESS TEENAGE YEARS? DON’T YOU EVER STAND AGAINST THE GOSPEL OF JESUS CHRIST AGAIN OR THE LORD WILL REBUKE YOU PUBLICLY. I forgive you, but the LORD is powerful in me and HE WILL NOT BE STOPPED.
"You have done a terrible thing to the Gospel of Jesus Christ and against my family. Heck, I don’t even care about me or my family but ZEAL for the LORD has eaten me up.”
”I love you dearly, more than you know but you have not recognized my love. Instead you have you have secretly been jealous of me….”
"Some times the LORD has to break our legs when we stray. He will now break yours.”
I notice that NOT ONCE DID YOU TELL YOUR BROTHER HE HAD LIED ABOUT YOU TO HOWARD STERN. That’s because you and he both know he was telling the truth. The world will know it soon.
I KNOW EVERYTHING, LUBBEN.
I even have the footage of you on the Ricki Lake Show from 1994.
I have police reports about you.
I know that both your mother and brother have suffered from anemia — like you.
I know about your first miscarriage at home in the bathroom during senior year — before you’d ever been a hooker or porn starlet.
I know how your parents moved you back home to help raise [your daughter] Tiffany, but rather than get a real job you moved out and went back to "the life." You needlessly subjected your own daughter to the hell that was your life out of selfishness.
I know how your parents paid for your cars — and how you stuck them with the bill and tarnished their credit. I know how your dad repaired your vehicles, because your’e so reckless and thoughtless.
I know about the traffic ticket you signed your sister’s name to — throwing a high school student under the bus for something you did. Your own sister. (I have the court records)
I know how you trashed your parents’ house on Leadora with a party; how the plumbing was ruined, and there was a fire at the garage.
How you father NEVER SAID "You’re dead to me." How no one remembers you taking your bible with you. How you called a friend to pick you up and said you had a place to stay.
How you and Gary moved into, and later trashed, your family’s camper, after you two were thrown out of Gary’s aunt’s condo. How child services was called on you.
I have the testimony of Savannah Jane — a deaf woman with cancer whom you took advantage of.
I have the testimony of the people at the Cambridge debate, including XXXXX XXXXX, who recalls you hit on him afterward.
I have the photos and video of you from PSK.
And more. I have everything you prayed I would never find.
Everything.
EITHER EVERYONE ELSE IN THW WORLD IS LYING, OR YOU ARE. WHO DO YOU THINK PEOPLE — POTENTIAL DONORS — WILL BELIEVE?
Shelley,
I am willing to put you on camera for your response. We meet at a neutral spot, I interview you, I own the footage.
You can either keep up the lies and go down in flames — or you can come clean and beg forgiveness and pull a Jimmy Swaggart.
Personally, I don’t care which — because the things you have done sicken me to my stomach. But I am offering you the opportunity to respond in your own way.
You can choose to ignore this offer, and take your chances. Either way the real Shelley Lubben story goes live very soon. This is guaranteed.
Don’t delay in answering me, for I have no more patience for you and the way you scam people and hurt those around you. Including your own children
Do the right thing, Shelley, for the sake of your family — for the love of God. Tell the truth for once in your life. This may be your final chance.
Have some self-respect, have some decency, and look hard in the mirror and forgive yourself. If you can, others can too.
I’m offering you more of a chance than you ever gave anyone in your miserable, sinful, selfish life: redeem yourself, help your family.
What will it be?
MW
I’m glad you posted this Cindi — and it’s quite telling that Shelley sent you the unedited version which would have been embarrassing to third parties if published. What a hearty of fucking gold.
Can anyone help me here — can you spot the part where I threaten her life or that of her family? Or where I threaten to expose her family’s real names and addresses (that’s reportedly another thing she claimed in her email to her mother about me)?
You see, unlike SHELLEY, I will NEVER put a child in a project that relates to pornography. I even blurred out her own kids’ faces in the photos THAT SHELLEY USES TO GET DONATIONS. She has used Madelyne’s child’s face (which I also blurred out in my interview clip with her) to raise money. I won’t even use a photo of Shelley’s adult daughter, Tiffany. That’s because I refuse to exploit the victims of Shelley Lubben.
Yesterday and today, Lubben and her co-conspirators have been texting, calling, Facebooking and emailing Maddy, and Maddy’s mother — and even her ten year old brother. HER TEN YEAR OLD BROTHER. These are disgusting, sick people.
Madelyne informs me she will be instructing them that her attorney will seek restraining orders against that whole crew if they contact her or her family again.
Incidentally, Maddy also reports that she went to court today and her record is being cleaned up — charges for public intoxication, and such, dropped — BECAUSE SHE IS IN AN OUTPATIENT PROGRAM. She is helping herself.
Lubben, she never needed you — you needed her. You made her THINK she needed you, because you’re a sick predator. You needed her to think she needed you — so you worked to make her dependent on you and set her recovery back YEARS.
Today you texted Maddy and asked her to please stop. Our response is simple: CONFESS what you have done, AND MAKE AMENDS to the people you’ve wronged. Until then, no mercy, no relief and no quarter.
You hear me now, Shelley?
Oh and by the way, Shelley — you told Maddy to stay away from Ricky B. (who was sweet on her and used to buy her flowers).
Was that because you wanted him all for yourself?
whoa wait a sec SHE was on ricki lake! LMAO
I’m getting flack for commenting on this and posting about it at all, but I just want to make sure I’ve got this right:
Michael Whiteacre gets contacted by adult industry people and Lubben’s own family and comes out to Lubben in a private email about everything they’ve shared with him, in order to give her the opportunity to come clean about things that are purely defensive on their part (because they’re the ones being used and/or attacked), and then Lubben shares it here and this makes her look less implicated how? Nothing personable to say it’s not true…? I don’t see anything personal in any of her responses. I still don’t understand what any of this is supposed to convey about her not being a person with issues that uses people and doesn’t sufficiently give back for all she has taken. It doesn’t make it look any better from my vantage point.
Is any of it not true? That’s what I want to know. And if it’s not, why would all of these people say otherwise? I’d like to hear a careful, thoughtful explanation that speaks to me as a person, without using devil talk, witchcraft or mythology to explain it. Nothing is really that complicated, in my opinion, anyway.
Yes, Kelsey, Shelley appeared on Ricki Lake, with a friend of hers and an entirely fictional story. She was a liar even then. I have a copy of the contract that guests had to sign, and she blatantly violated it.
Shelley would do or say ANYTHING for attention. Anything for fame.
Since we’re posting emails, HERE is one from Shelley to her brother, from Wednesday, October 5, 2011.
Her brother had asked her to produce PROOF that I am a dangerous psychotic criminal who has made threats of violence against her and her family (as she had alleged in her crazy email to her parents — who are estranged from Shelley due to her constant lying about them and refusal to seek help or budge on working things out between them).
THIS is what Shelley sent her brother in response (actually, a portion of it — she sent several rambling emails. I’m saving some of it for later):
If you want to partner with a pornographer and subject your family to demonic influence and dangerous people who commit crimes against women and children then so be it. You have no clue what you have become involved in. Michael Whiteacre works with Free Speech Coalition which they are tied to child and teen pornography as well as pornography that depicts teens and children. They are extremely involved in fighting laws that protect children as you can read about here [she linked to the Wikipedia entry on Ashcroft v. Free Speech Coalition].
[A]ttached is information on … Diane Duke who is a lesbian and pro-abortion and the president of Free Speech Coalition. She ran Planned Parenthood for years and murdered babies. She currently fights against protection of children on the internet as well as fights AGAINST child pornography laws so that way the adult industry can sell porn with teens and depiction of children. It’s the hottest genre right now. You can easily search on google for teen porn and it will blow your mind how much you will find. It’s ALL directly connected to Free Speech Coalition who is the trade association that protects the entire adult industry led by Diane Duke with the help of Michael Whiteacre.
If you want to side with a pornographer tied to child pornography and the depiction of teen and child sex and the abuse of women and an organization that promotes abortion then you have chosen to associate yourselves with murderers, rapists and pedophiles. You should at least take time to know who you are consorting with. And you should have compassion for your sister who has been subjected to horrible amounts of evil in order to help rescue women and children from pornography, child pornography and sex trafficking. These women and children are somebody’s daughter. God forbid if it was ever your daughter. I guarantee the Free Speech Coalition and Michael Whiteacre could care less about protecting your daughter. Quite the contrary, they would gladly welcome your daughter into the porn industry if given the chance.
Whereas I risk my life to protect children.
You may not agree with my testimony of growing up and our parents but you are choosing to support murderers and pornographers and trust information from criminals. You are consorting with criminals. With the worst kind of criminals!
I hope you will really take the time to at least read the truth about the porn industry and it’s extreme connection to child pornography.
[Shelley then included some links to hardcore porn — all legal, BTW, like TeensForCash and an Adult Video Universe link to a video from Devil’s Films (I guess she and her porn addict servant Roger just happened to have them handy) — as well as an article from Morality in Media entitled, ‘Adult Industry’ Is No Friend of Children or the Family, Despite ASACP Effort to Curb Child Abuse and Label Smut]
I work very closely with the most powerful anti-porn organizations and they all support me and believe in me and even have compassion for me that I am fighting such a vicious fight on the front lines. Pink Cross is the only organization of former porn actresses who reach out to women trapped in porn as well as fights pornography. It takes extreme courage and endurance to do what we do. I’ve worked with the FBI and the Obscenity Task Force and sex trafficking organizations across the country. I’ve testified in congress, California state capitol and stood up against a billion dollar industry who is trying to take me and my WHOLE family out because of it
And then there’s my brother partnering with criminals who promote teen sex, child pornography and pornography. Geez. I hope you are smarter than that.
I love it!
Thank you Michael………………..
You know what Lubben posts at the end of every one of her emails — Cindi can confirm this:
“You shall know the truth and the truth shall set you free.”
Define irony. . . .
Omg she must be flipping out…wow…You know she is having a conniption right now
I’ve got plenty more. If Shelley Lubben wants to play an online version of “chicken” or engage in a blinking contest, I’m down.
Time to ‘fess up, Shelley. Time to OWN your mistakes and transgressions. Salvation lay just on the other side of admitting you were wrong.
It’s the eye if the needle, Mrs. Lubben. Do you have the guts to take a deep breath and pass through it? Whenever you’re ready, you can take my hand.
Gee…I’m beginning to wonder if I’m now on Shelley’s hit list, considering all the stuff I’ve run on her at my blogs on her two-faced hypocrisy and outright lunacy.
Where’s my check from FSC or Planned Parenthood, or any one of those vaunted “pro-porn” organizations??
Shelley probably shouldn’t be near any blunt objects now..she looks like she’s losing it.
Anthony
That’s right, Anthony. Anyone who opposes Shelley is either mentally, ill or a corrupt, demonized member of a cabal of pedophiles, baby murderers and rapists.
You see how simple the universe looks when you’re totally fucking insane?
Oh, WHAT THE HELL, here’s another classic tidbit from Shelley’s recent flurry of emails to her brother:
“I don’t want anything to happen to your family or satan to have a foothold into your life due to consorting with demonized men who abuse women and children.”
I included this one JUST so you all know I’m not making up the part where she says her enemies are demonized. LOL I mean — naturally, we MUST be demonized, right? She’s a Holy prophet of G-d and thus anyone who opposes her is demonized. SIMPLE.
And NOW, the sanctimonious buffet killer, Jan Meza chimes in with:
“Maddy, my objective in this response is not to call you out, I love you, but you’re wrong, what you’re doing is wrong. If you want to spout hate I will have NO part in it!”
Who asked you to be a part of it, Jan? I love the passive-aggressive BS, taught by the master. “You’re doing a horrible, evil thing but I love you — I love you so much I want you to do exactly as I do”. Mmmm-hmmm. Moving on…
“I’m saddened by your choice to run back into the arms of your abusers. As soon as they’re done with you, you know that they will chew you up and spit you out with no one to rely on. Maddy, this is not you!! My heart aches right now, even if you had a disagreement with Shelley revenge is never the solution. I saw God doing wonderful things in your life, to stray from that will only cause you long-term pain. Shelley Lubben is NOT the devil, but you are allowing the devil to use whatever bitterness you have to deceive you and use you against God.”
Again, we’re all demonized, people. LOL It’s the big man himself, Lucifer! Hey Jan, I never abused Maddy. Fuck you for suggesting it. You’ll go to hell for lying as well as stealing.
And check out the guilt trip. Jan, you and Shelley are friggin’ PREDATORS.
“It’s not about any one person; the anti-porn fight is about serving God and bringing out the truth about the horrible abuses that go on behind the scenes of a pornographic movie.”
Right so, no matter what evils Shelley does, since the CAUSE is supposedly valid, we should ignore the fact that she’s a hypocrite and a fraud. Great Logic, Jan.
“Your story helped so many lost and hurting women, now your actions will only make them question that help.”
Even though your story was a lie, RE-WRITTEN BY SHELLEY LUBBEN TO SUIT HER OWN ENDS, just as Shelley re-wrote HER OWN MOTHER’S “Testimony”, it helps us get donations, so you should just go along with it. Mmm-hmmmm…
Yes, Jan people ARE going to question that help — because IT’S NO HELP AT ALL TO ENABLE AN ADDICT, YOU COW. This is the SAME BS you a-holes tried to use on my friend Ann Marie (Brooke Ashley). It didn’t work out so well for you then either, DID IT JAN?
“I’m praying for you, but I’m especially praying for [your daughter]. BTW…I’ve seen some of your recent posts, I know your page is not your own anymore. Don’t be a puppet for the devil, wise up my love, wise up!”
No, Jan, it is Pink Cross that takes over control of its victims’ social media pages, not I. What an insult to Maddy too suggest she’s some stupid pawn, while YOU AND SHELLEY are brilliant beams of light. Again, got to hell.
Hey Jan, if you and Shelley love each other so much, why is it she calls you a backstabber for going behind her back and making your own deal with AHF around the time of the F.A.I.R. ballot initiate press conference (the one that Maddy was too intoxicated to attend WHILE SHE WAS LVING AT THE “RECOVERY HOME”)? HMMMM?
Oh, I KNOW — it’s because Pink Cross is still your meal ticket.
Jan, do you really think Shelley’s ever going to let you be “large and in charge”?
See you in hell, Jan!
Madelyne just called me. Shelley has been harassing her. Tomorrow she goes to get a restraining order against Shelley and her gang.
You have crossed the line, Lubben. Tomorrow, you’ll see what I can really do.
I almost feel sorry for you.
A piece of Scripture Shelley doesn’t want you to see. James 1: 13-14 When tempted, no one should say, “God is tempting me.” For God cannot be tempted by evil, nor does he tempt anyone; 14 but each person is tempted when they are dragged away BY THEIR OWN EVIL DESIRE and enticed.
Whatever happens, happens.
OK…gotta comment on this one:
“I don’t want anything to happen to your family or satan to have a foothold into your life due to consorting with demonized men who abuse women and children.”
“YOUR family”???
Hey, Shelley….you do know that that is your FREAKIN’ BROTHER you are talking about, right??? YOUR OWN FLESH AND BLOOD SIBLING????
And…people who pass out Ambien and alcohol like candy and Kool-Aid to “recovering” addicts have no damn business running smack about other people’s “Satanic” footholds.
I may be a lapsed Christian myself, but at least I fully understand the Ten Commandments enough to take them seriously. Especially the commandants against idolatry.
Memo, Ministress: You are NOT Jesus, nor will you ever be. Get real, get help, or get out.
Tomorrow will be, to say the least, an interesting day. Thankfully, it’s also a day off of work for me.
Anthony
Maddy, any thoughts on a career?
^I don’t mean a return to porn but a new path forward. You seem like an artistic person. Ever considered a career in graphic design?
@Anthony – Shelley long ago alienated herself / became estranged from the rest of her family. I think it’s high time y’all learned how and why….
Im very busy and on set right now and this is the 1st of all of this stuff im reading. All I have to say is HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!
And most importantly, Michael Whiteacre is who I want representing me and the adult industry. He is a very smart, knowledgeable and credible person who crushes hypocrites, liars, and scammers with the fact.
My 1st day off is Thursday, I will be reading and catching up on all of the juicy fact then.
Go Michael!!!! Crush this scammer!!!!
YES!!! MICHEAL!!! YOU SURE LOOK LIKE YOU HAVE A LOT OF TIME ON YOUR HANDS THESE DAYS! I SURE WOULD LOVE TO HAVE YOU REPRESENTING ME IN THIS “GREAT INDUSTRY”. yesssssssss!!! tell shelly to stay in Buggersfield and help those poor people out over there in that right-wing gay hating city!! Yesssss!!
@JustDaveXXX – It’ll be my honor, Dave. Best of luck with your shoots, and thank you for the vote of confidence, brother.
Hell next time i’m in Buggersfield Ill buy shelly some drinks and get her some Meth!! Hhehehe!
@RickMadrid and a bitch slap from me and hows about we get john lithgow from footloose to ban her from shaking her drunk ass at PSK!