Op/ED Andi Anderson tells her side of the story. Read the whole thing here- http://www.shelleylubben.com/
Here is an Excerpt-
"My journey into the porn industry started in 2005. I went by the stage name Andi Anderson. When I first began, I would work and go to school Monday through Friday and then go to LA on the week-ends. I did every hardcore type of scene (anal, double penetrations, gangbangs, etc.). After two years, I moved to LA (porn valley) and lived the life of money, fame, drugs and constant partying. At first, when I moved and chose to perform in pornographic films, I was so adamant about NOT doing drugs and alcohol. But, after a year or so of that so-called “glamorous” life, I sadly discovered that drugs and drinking were a part of the lifestyle. I began to drink and party out of control! Cocaine, alcohol and ecstasy were my favorites. Before long, I turned into a person I did not want to be. After doing so many hardcore scenes I couldn’t do it anymore. I just remember being in horrible situations and experiencing extreme depression and being alone and sad. I got a boyfriend in the industry which ended up dragging me into an even darker depression. I remember being in a dark room, drunk and high on cocaine. I wanted to kill myself. Suicide seemed to be the only thing that felt right for me. I was hurt over and over, so many times in this industry."
I really like this chick. She always looked very attractive to me. But I remember reading her interview with Billy Watson where she said she incurred a lasting injury from constant anal sex. She also seemed eager to engage in anal but always seemed disconnected from the scenes. I always remembered what she said in the interview and it makes me cringe.
This is why I don’t like anal.
Oh yeah, and I wish Andi Anderson the best in her new life. I pray she stays sober.
She was known for anal scernes with horse cocked guys. Lots of Interacial anal stuff. That has to take a toll on a girl’s body.
i don’t feel sorry for her at all, she chose her life. the adult industry always has to get blamed for the bad decisions of other people
I don’t understand the big deal about porn. You show up, shoot a scene, then go home. What you do outside that time is on YOU!!! I’m so sick of people blaming porn for their own bad decisions. Did they force her to do a line when on set? Or did she do it on her own?
Everyone read the next paragraph that she posted and also look at the pics with Saint Shelley. She did a lot of extreme anal, I see a lot from Shelley about STDs and such but what about the damage from anal sex. Lucky is big time right, look at all the issues Ginger Lynn and some other performers(Janine, Chasey) have had away from porn. Did porn wreck Jesse and Janine’s marriage? Dont think so.
At least her comments explain why her performances were inconsistent. As expected, she collected the checks from all those scenes, her premium pay for the extreme anal work plenty until she left. Then, once gone from the industry found all sorts of faults she never spoke up about previously.
No one held a gun to her head when the cocaine was on the table, no one forced her to drink or smoke anything else. Instead of taking personal responsibility for her own failed choices, she blames everyone else. Sadly, she is now being used by an entirely different kind of predator and will not get better until she faces the fact that everything that happened to her was the result of her choices. Best of luck until you realize that…
How about them Giants! In the year of the Pitcher, the team with the best ERA, go figure, plus they got Halloween/Fall colored outfits.
Andi worked for me on 3 occasions and did great each time. I enjoyed meeting her and am grateful for her good scenes. It’s hard to reconcile the woman I met with the experience I read she went through. Porn is as good or bad as you make it.
How can there be premium pay for anal in Evil Angel productions, anal is always a given there.
Thank you to those of you who wish good things to Ashley. I appreciate it when people are kind to the women and men who choose to leave porn and rebuild their lives.
Love,
Shelley
Larry, it might be common but it is by no means a given in their productions. For the most part, the more you do, the more you get paid.
Is it really true that porn producers put guns to girls’ heads and say “Snort this line, bitch!”?
I guess the big, bad porno boogie-man made her do it!
Well, the Pink Cross is definitely a motivator/symbol for some women who may feel there are other things they may want to do with their lives – however that’s about it. The Pink Cross in the end appears to be as much of an enabler and manipulator as your most common street pimp.
At this stage I’ve heard first hand of one too many women of which the Pink Cross didn’t in actuality keep their word with in regards to providing the type of material, psychological and emotional support of which is needed in order to truly “rebuild” a life.
Also the entire “repent or else” gimmick is so early 1900’s…I’d like to see Shelley actually come up with some new methods of which to relate to MODERN women (and maybe some new speech material as well) – oh…wait – why bother…Maybe she can just steal some of this girl’s experiences and thoughts to portray as her own in her next book like she did with a couple of other women…
If the Pink Cross really had it together – they’d put their efforts into bringing forth needed changes in regards to the porn industry rather than living in the fantasy land of it disappearing.
Anyone who is totally against something – is only against that thing due to having fear of that element being within themselves. I think Shelley still needs to face some things in regards to herself personally.
And let me write a bit more being that I haven’t vented on this blog in a while:
Here’s my deep rooted problem with the Pink Cross at this stage of my life journey.
It’s just too absolute. Nothing in life is ever an absolute or an extreme. It’s never black and white – it’s always some shade of gray and not realizing that is not only the problem within adult entertainment – but the problem with our society as a whole.
Rather than condemning something or endorsing something completely – just share the facts as you best TRULY know them as you learn them?
A human beings opinions and thoughts will always change and fluctuate – it doesn’t make you crazy – it’s called GROWING. I don’t see Shelley’s mindset as having wavered at all for many years now and I’m not able to understand how there hasn’t been much growth in her case.
Don’t make empty promises to people or paint a picture of beauty when there are still some ugly elements that are present. For Shelley to present herself, life, and mindset as she is on her sites just isn’t right, because there are far to many missing pieces and the puzzle isn’t even CLOSE to being complete in my view.
I’ve read many version’s of Shelley’s story – and the issue I have is that she’s consistently gone from one caretaker, to another, to another – I haven’t seen any instance of being in a positive state of mind INDEPENDENT of anyone or any organization.
I don’t think Shelley has ever really “left” porn or found anything much outside of it aside of it due to her still flirting with porn consistently. This whole “Shelley situation” is the equivalent of breaking up with a guy you’re having a hard time getting over. If you keep contacting that guy, it’s because a part of you still likes him – maybe you don’t LOVE the guy anymore but there were some elements that you miss, so you want to keep checking up on them. Sometimes you might just want answers and/or closure and you don’t “like” him but you have the attachment. Hey – it HAPPENS, but you gotta DEAL WITH IT before you can really move on into another relationship.
I can totally relate to and see where Shelley is at, because I was there at one point, but then I kept working on myself and I kept REALLY looking in the mirror at myself (and I’m still doing it – healthy people DO THAT). Sometimes I saw elements that scared me and that I hated or that I thought were just plain fucked up, but then I got to the point of ACCEPTANCE.
All of us have good and evil within us. It’s called a BALANCE and regardless of what religion, or spiritual creed you live by, that’s just what being a human being is all about.
Unless you can accept the “good and evil” within yourself, you never reach your full potential and you never live life fully – most likely you’ll never reach true peace or happiness either.
My stint as a porn actress my first time around was far briefer than many others I know – but I learned a lot – about others and myself. There are some women I’ve met who I’ve seen certain elements within them to where I definitely wanted to say (and have said) “hey girl – run for the hills – this is not for you”…but then I’ve met others to where being a “pornstar” was the perfect fit for them.
I have a website called GettingIntoPorn and a site called GettingOutOfPorn – will either ever be complete? Probably not because I’ve realized that I’m not done yet. I had to reach a place of which I realized that the porn industry for me was an exploration of some areas within myself that initially I had guilt over, but now embrace and actually kind of like. Considering that there are so many AREAs of adult entertainment (some right for you, some not) how can you condemn the whole thing when an element within yourself was initially attracted to it for some reason in the first place?
If you’re Christian, the “devil” didn’t make you do it – wanna know why? Because God made the “devil” so if you wanna get to the source – God made you do it – and for a good reason too….
I’ve have met some very interesting men and women in and out of porn who have done me the biggest favor by being HONEST with me about porn (and life) and I think that’s what Shelley really needs to do with the woman she’s coming across, but only AFTER she can be a bit more honest with herself about some events that might have happened – because right now what she’s encouraging isn’t that great for women who COULD be on a path of really making a solid life for themselves as INDEPENDENT and SELF SUFFICIENT human beings.
Until you can live life independently and really take care of yourself without an organization or group backing you – you’re not fit to encourage anyone on this planet to do much of anything.
Maybe someone needs to make something called the “solitary cross”, because unless you’re willing to essentially lock yourself away for a while with a great big mirror and a pen and paper to write down your thoughts, WHILE you make a living for yourself on your own without the help of a church, family, husband, etc – you’re not going to figure out much of anything in life.
And one more thing Shelley – Lucifer (or the Devil) was kicked out of heaven due to his VANITY. As Christian as you claim to be, WHY are you still allowing yourself to indulge in being so damn vain and why do you surround yourself with people who encourage it? That overload of photos on your site and book cover are out of control.
i never have cummed in or on Andi but heard she was pretty wild to have on set, and i think she looks much hotter in the natural photo on shelleys site than in any of her flicks…
i think it is fine to have a shelley who can mentally help those who feel they need support to depart what they themselves consider a path of selfdestruction.
honestly i dont care what motives shelly may have, money or fame.. it would be much to altruistic to believe she did/does out of the goodness of her heart. and yeah, she probably cant help all.. some are probably meant to be porn-girls.
good luck to andi, i truly hope you find happiness.