Mariah Milano writes me –
hey Cindi…ok this is going to get me shit on by all the haters but I could care less.
Last night was the XBiz awards show and from what I hear it was a good time. A lot of my friends were there but I wasn’t, I’m in Spain working on a project, which I would trade any day over
sitting in a big room filled with way too many bimbos and cheesy guys pretending to be ballers.
I want to just throw this out there: How fucked up is that these awards have become a fucking disgrace? One of the girls nominated for web starlet hasn’t shot a scene of any kind in a over year and is retired!
On a personal note, I never expected to win. As you know I don’t play politics and say shit that gets me on the shit list of those who want everyone to be Politically Correct about everything and
not to rock the boat. Well I say fuck that! I’ll rock the fucking boat if I wish…I’ve earned my seat on the boat!
The category I was nominated for was best Porn Star Website. in my category 15 of the 20 nominees don’t even own their sites. They don’t run them or have anything to do with them other than getting
a little % check every month and shooting content when their webmaster tells them to. And of those 15 there are 2 or 3 who don’t even get a % check at all!! They have nothing to do with
their sites whatsoever! Ask Amy Reid about her site and how much she gets paid. When I asked her she laughed and said she never even talked to Atlas Media when they put her "Official Site" online. What a joke!
I wonder what the winner uses to make her FHG’s? Does she make them by hand like I do or does she have a template or a variety of templates? Or if she uses an auto submitter like Chameleon? I wonder which TGP’s she submits to regularly?
To me the winners are the 5 girls in this category who actually run our sites and take pride in them and deal directly with our members. Girls like Kelly Divine who busts her big ass to make her
site quality and keep it updated and same goes to Nikki Benz and Sophie Dee and Belladonna. They are the winners for keeping it real and representing themselves.
As far as the rest of the awards go to me it looks like a list of the top advertisers all the way down the list. Isn’t that a strange coincidence? I am less than surprised but I have to say that XBiz was the one that I hoped would do things the right way and they didn’t, they did it the same old way everyone has been doing on both sides of the hill. (reference to hollywood vs. the valley)
Am I bitter, not really. Do I think its fucked that myself or one of the other 4 didn’t win? You bet! Look at Belladonna’s site…it’s the most unique site I’ve ever seen. I don’t understand it and it confuses me but it’s all her. She made it that way. It’s how SHE sees it and to me that’s awesome!
Ok, so bring on the hatred! 🙂
NL- check out Mariah’s site at MariahXXX.net