Op/Ed by Mariah Milano
Ok what an story title right? It’s like opening a book you’re writing about cooking with "turn on the oven…"
But I’m writing about the other side of the issue on this one, not about the girls using. I’m writing about the directors and companies who continue to shoot girls who are notoriously fucked up strung out and drunks on set and off. Isn’t it actually illegal to shoot a video of someone if they are under the influence at the time that they signed their release? If it isn’t illegal it certainly voids that release. When you shoot for most companies now they not only have written releases they video you signing the release as well as have you make a statement verifying that you are not under the influence of any drugs including alcohol at the time of the recording and the signing.
Once again I bounce a big portion of the blame here on the agents who keep sending these girls to jobs when they know they are showing up to set really fucked up and putting other at risk if there are needles being used or whatever else high risk activity goes along with their addictions.
I know one girl who is my friend and whom I really like as a person but she is a total fucking wreck. Her life was pretty much destroyed at an early age by sexual abuse and she had a child as a result of a rape when she was 15. That child is now all fucked up at 15 years old and living on the streets. This girl has a lot to justify being fucked up all the time so she doesn’t have to deal with her tragedy of a life. She has breakdowns on sets and more often than not shows up totally fucked up yet she has one of the biggest names in the business. This one I know personally and know it to be a fact.
There are many other girls who are known drunks who are in the top 5 in the business. They show up slurring their words because they drank and took xanax which is as common in porn stars purse as condoms and lipstick. I am one who takes an occasional drink on set because I am terrified by dialogue. I can be naked in front of anyone but when it comes to dialogue I have absolutely no confidence at all. A few glasses of wine really helps me with that. You won’t see a video of me drunk though or incoherent ever.
My cam shows used to be a drunken exhibition because I was so insecure about the talking part. I’m being honest here and I think a lot of girls do the exact same thing. They get the jitters over the whole process and take a drink or 2 to calm down. I have no issue with it as long as you don’t get drunk and it shows on camera.
I would love for their to be intravenous drug testing with the AIM testing but it’ll never happen. I would love however for these companies to stand up for the quality of their product and refuse to shoot a girl who is too fucked up. Many of them do but I’m afraid not enough of them. And I honestly doubt that most would turn away a top name girl and send her home for being fucked up. I think they would just roll with it because they would be afraid to piss the girl off or maybe they can even get her to do some extras without paying for them.
I had a drug problem during the 7 years I took of from shooting movies. I own up to it and I don’t use meth any more and haven’t since 2003. It’s a vicious evil drug and I can honestly say it would have killed me if I wouldn’t have stopped using.
I ran into a lot of porn people during my days as a tweaker and some are still active in the business and still tweakers which disgusts me that anyone would hire someone as tweaked out as these people are.
As fans what are your opinions on this? Do you care of girls are fucked up during scenes? Do you even notice? Which stars do you notice to be fucked up regularly? Inquiring minds want to know! 🙂