Katja posted this letter to her fans yesterday on http://forum.adultdvdtalk.com/ you can read the whole thread by clicking the link
Katja Writes-
Hello everybody,
I wanted to take the time to thank everybody in the porn industry and also my fans for the support over the last (almost) 7 years. I decided 2 weeks ago to retire from the adult industry and from sex/adult work in general. The reason is that I have done all that there is to do in the porn/adult/stripper/escort universe.
This year I have finally bought my own house in the SF Valley, a fixer upper foreclosure that I renovated. I remember in March 2003 when I first came to the US with 200 bucks in my pocket (in the year 2010 I can apply for citizenship) – I have come a very far way since then and now I just want to make sure that in another 7 years I can look back and still say that, "wow, have I come a long way in the past 7 years".
I am very grateful for everything that I have gained by being in this industry. It has taught me a lot about myself, made me a lot of money, got me a lot of free time, made it possible for me to achieve what I wanted to do in almost a blink of an eye compared to how long it takes regular people to to the same. I have met amazing friends and had many good times. But also of course you gain a little, you loose a little so there is a price that I paid for that. I will always have that past. I will always have to deal with judgments until I die. I will have to explain myself to new people I meet and their families. Now is the time in my life where the gain-loose priorities change. I have put the gains to good use in my life and now I am looking at the other side of the calculation and I am realizing I have grown up and moved into a different direction.
When you are 23 you don’t give a fuck about much. You are hating on your parents anyway, you think you don’t need anyone and people talking shit about you makes you feel more important. Now that I am 30 years old it does matter to me what people think of me because I owe it to myself to create different, new things that I can be judged by. Next time my mom goes to get her hair done I don’t want her to have to lie anymore. I want her to say with a proud tone in her voice: "my daughter teaches German classes in L.A." or whatever it is I am doing.
I don’t want to feel uncomfortable in relationships anymore because of what I do. It is hard for any man to date a porn star, even maybe after you retire. But it is simply impossible to have a relationship while you are making a living fucking other people. It’s been a great ride and a part of my life that I will always look back to with no regrets and lots of funny, weird and crazy stories. It was something that was fun and fit into my life at a younger age but now I want different things for myself.
It was part of my journey and made me who I am today but when I look forward I do not see myself sucking and fucking to pay my mortgage. I see myself working a job that maybe doesn’t pay insane amounts of money but that fulfills me and takes care of my bills that need to be paid. I see myself enjoying a routine, showing up at the same office or place of employment every day at the same time. I see myself building new, stable relationships. I see myself taking on new responsibilities, committing to one person, getting married, starting a family together, making cup cakes and carving pumpkins for Thanksgiving with my kids.
I know I don’t owe anyone any kind of explanation at all but it was important to me to make this statement to show you my reasons.
I have been known in the industry for being professional, reliable, on time and organized and these things haven’t changed so since I am looking for a new challenge and a new job if anyone has any offers or suggestions for me I can be reached at meetkatja@gmail.com – I am very good working at an office desk but also organizing production and I am a good camera girl too.
Thanks again to everybody and especially to Mark Spiegler. Mark, I know you don’t realized it, maybe because I have never told you so, but I owe a lot to you. You were a great mentor and teacher to me and I am still thinking about what you would say in some situations in my life when I need advice. Thanks for your guidance! I will forever be grateful for having had you in my life at some point.
Thanks to all my co stars. There won’t be any juicy remarks now because I have always looked at working with you all as this: work and I think this is why many of you liked shooting with me.
I’ve never been a big attention whore and loved reading people’s comments on how great I am but if you have something good to say about me, if you have enjoyed my work over the last 7 years, please let me know. This is the time and place to do it! I have been looking forward to this very day when I would be writing this statement and now I am very happy but also crying. It’s always hard to leave something you know you’re good at.
kisses
Katja
i’m sad to see you go. You are so sexy and hot and i love your movies but i’m happy you are doing what makes you happy and what makes you feel good for yourself. Congratulations.
Just wanna wish you all the success in the world Katja. You don’t need luck. You will be successful at anything and everything you choose to do. You have always been intelligent, level headed, likable and never full of yourself. You made sets fun to be on. The porn industry needs more like you.
I hope she is lucky in her new endeavours, while she never has been my cup of coffe she has been almost level headed, even when saying that she does not escort with her reviews all over TER. She does comes clean here.
But for her fan, she can always say like the Governator with a German accent; “I’ll be back”.
She was one of the better porn stars. Best of luck, Katja.
Harvey — not sure HOW Katja could have kept the lid on her escorting with her website freely advertising it, and an email address such as meetkatja@!
That made her denials and subsequent humilliating exposes as funny as Trannyfucker “I’m no longer doing Gay porn” denials.
Harvey – WTF? Is Katja delusional?
Does she blame the escorting on her evil twin? The result of hackers out to destroy her perfect reputation?
The first time I saw this semi-crazy (now that you mentioned her denial of escorting) chick was in a JJ flick shortly after he’d moved to Evil Angel. I’ve never forget the confused look on her face as Jules starts the scene with her entering his crib, marveling her huge backside, and remark that someone told him about her. She’s as clueless as Stephen Hawkins being asked about Paris Hilton, as Jules tries to coax the (I assume pre-arranged) response out of her. Finally, he gives up and tells her it was Joey (Silvera).
She was even more confused and you could imagine her thoughts being basically, “…people are talking about me? What have I done? My papers are in order…”
“Have you ever committed a crime or offense for which you were not arrested”
wonder if she’ll answer truthfully on her citizenship form? how many total johns does that adds up to?
another one leaves and some more come in!!! anyway you all and COLONEL and Jermey and cindy….Happy thanksgiving and be safe and not sorry!!! Rick Madrid You too out there!! You like to party and get crazy and butt wild with those girls out there in the industry and don’t end up in the LA city jail or county again and keep your temper in check buddy!! YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN RICK? Ok you all be safe and don’t over eat…Pete
She’ll be out of money in 1 or 2 years and back selling her body, whish will be even fatter..
Btw, who would marry that cum recepticle, let a lone reproduce with such a pudgy prostitute..?
*She’s leaving porn, because she’s getting older/fatter, not for a possibility at a ‘relationship’.
Very well said! Good luck!
this will give her more time to hook on the side. Up close she is BEAT, btw…
“Thanks again to everybody and especially to Mark Spiegler. Mark, I know you don’t realized it, maybe because I have never told you so, but I owe a lot to you. You were a great mentor and teacher to me and I am still thinking about what you would say in some situations in my life when I need advice. Thanks for your guidance! I will forever be grateful for having had you in my life at some point.”
Probably he is not the funniest guy in the party but he is a professional and he does the best for their spiegler girls.
Good luck in your new life Katja
The funny think is that I love German chicks but unlike Angela Baron, Dru Barrymore, Phoenix Ray, Brianna Banks, Victoria Sinn, Amy Reid, Annette Scharwz, Katja always looked more Russian that German and that has pronted all sort of funny historical speculation in XPT.
JED do not worry about her citizen form. Whores lie!
“But also of course you gain a little, you loose a little so there is a price that I paid for that.”
“There won’t be any juicy remarks now because I have always looked at working with you all as this: work…”
From ADT:
“I don’t have regrets about anything. All I am saying is that working as a porn star comes with some issues that you will have to deal with and my priorities have changed now. I decided that I am not willing to deal with those issues anymore. That doesn’t mean that I have regrets as far as the past goes. I am just lucky enough to have options and to be able to just make this decision. And I am making the decision because I do not want to wake up one day and have regrets.”
It sounds as if she’s trying to play the tough gal by avoiding any admission of regret. Regret is a perfectly healthy emotion that most people experience. Barrack Obama has regrets about his job. WTF?
I don’t think she liked being a pornstar and her retirement has been a long time coming-like since last year when she took down her old site.
She is an awesome, well adjusted and honest (well, more honest than others) person. Props to her.
“She’ll be out of money in 1 or 2 years and back selling her body, whish will be even fatter..”
–Go fuck yourself.
“[Mark Spiegler] is not the funniest guy in the party but he is a professional and he does the best for their spiegler girls.”
–Fuck Mark Spiegler too.
Pornstars do a work that is in demand by many, and there is good money for the women that looks good and can act in the industry but its abit like the old time´s executioner trade, disrespected, “a dirty job, but someone`s got to do it..” Eternal disrespect for money…
A good chance,or risk, that when the money runs out, she will sell herself again. Its often like that for these people, they get used to the money and money doesnt come so easy in all walks of life.
For me personally its hard to understand people that do this for a living that goes out and show their faces at least and reveal their identity. Never again respected, not even by oneself probably, a family that is forever ashamed of you, few chances for normal relationships, always questioned and looked down on, etc, is it worth some lousy money that?
Kassins future husband och boyfriends must always be haunted by million internet links and sites with the sleasiest contents forever. A hard life. I wouldnt stand it. Some maybe can, but I think, few.
Good bye babe! and take care.
This story is 10 months old. Only the gospels on Jesus took longer for some people to get around to commenting on. I expect a few Raewalds at the sex forum tomorrow night. Should be fun.
OLD NEWS. She’s been gone from porn a looooong time already. Although she might still be escorting.
Why is this even brought up now?
In a few more months, Chrissie, Raewald will be commenting for the first time on the Steve Driver murder and subsequent police execution by “non lethal” bullets.
I heard she’s in the business again!?