When the powers that be say "fuck off"
Current mood: bummed
Category: Life
My Christmas was bitter sweet and life changing this year. I found out I was pregnant the day before Christmas, not a planned pregnancy but not an unhappy one. I was excited and very sick, my body has never tolerated pregnancy well, then I got a lot sicker, I couldn’t keep any fluids or food down and ended up in the emergency room last Fri. There was a heart beat only of 60( half of normal ) and they told me the sac was deformed or deflated. We thought mabye from the dehydration, I was given nausea meds and stayed in bed the whole weekend chugging gatorade.
For the past 2 weeks I had had the feeling something was wrong, I also had a dream that I had a molar pregnancy, and remembered the dream, which I don’t do unless there’s an important message of some sort, or someone who’s dead and wants to say hi. I went to my OB on monday morning for confirmation of my suspicions, and asked about the possibility of molar pregnancy and that I had a lot of the symptoms, he was shocked I knew what one was, the second ultrasound showed an enlarged placenta and no heartbeat, then a 3rd ultrasound was done for comfirmation. I had the D and C today and I have to be monitered for the cancer risk, which I’m worried about, I know lots of women have healthy children after a mole, but I’m still a little worried,
I would like one more if not two, before they take everything out,(which I expected to happen sometime,but not this soon), this has been a big wake up call for me and I think the fat lady has sung in regards to my career in the sex industry. I have always loved the industry and will miss it. I’m going to continue the phone sex for fun on www.niteflirt.com under Ruby Adult Star, and Goddess Ruby(for subs) but that will soon be the only sex work I’ll be doing.
I’ve always wanted to go to school for forensics and maybe enter some cooking contests. I want to thank all my fans for there support and love, and will never take down this page for you. Thanks again, Ruby
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Molar Pregnancy- from http://pregnancy.about.com/
A molar pregnancy is a noncancerous (benign) tumor that develops in the uterus. Molar pregnancy is caused by a fertilization problem. Rather than becoming a viable pregnancy, the placenta develops into a fast-growing mass of cysts (hydatidiform mole).
With a complete molar pregnancy, the uterus contains only abnormal placental tissue. There’s no fetal tissue. With a partial molar pregnancy, the uterus contains abnormal placental tissue and at least some fetal tissue.
Molar pregnancy is uncommon. The risk is higher for women younger than age 20 and older than age 35, as well as those who’ve had a previous molar pregnancy.
With a molar pregnancy, a woman may miss a period and have a positive pregnancy test. This is because the placenta secretes human chorionic gonadotropin (HCG), a pregnancy hormone. Symptoms of early pregnancy — such as fatigue and breast tenderness — are possible as well. As the tumor grows, signs and symptoms may include:
- Vaginal bleeding
- Pelvic pressure or pain
- Severe nausea and vomiting
- High blood pressure
- Uterine enlargement
Molar pregnancy can be diagnosed with an ultrasound exam. The condition is generally treated with a procedure called dilation and curettage (D and C), in which the molar tissue is removed from the uterus. After the D and C, levels of pregnancy hormones may be monitored for a number of months to make sure that no molar tissue remains. It’s possible for molar tissue to eventually become cancerous (malignant).
After a molar pregnancy, most doctors recommend waiting at least one year before trying to conceive again. Although the risk of molar pregnancy is slightly higher in subsequent attempts to conceive, most women who’ve experienced molar pregnancy go on to have successful pregnancies.
Ruby,
I only wish you the best. Personally, I think you will be back once your body and mind heals but I can only hope that you have a peaceful rest in the mean time.
Please note that once you come back I will do at least one scene with you. If you have all your lady bits taken out then I will make a point to either shoot a creampie scene or at the very least shoot a few squirts in your pussy before pulling out.
You are one of the few honest and grounded girls in this business.
I went to Vegas for AEE/Internet and it sucks balls. The parties were lame, everyone was broke and in years past Vegas girls where cheap to shoot with. This year I had ragged ass Vegas strippers telling me they wanted $1200 for a scene. Then I had a old ass blonde granny from the east coast named Alexis flake on a booking but she likes to shoot with bi/gay guys anyways so it was probably for the best. I didnt shoot anything in Vegas but shot two scenes once I got back to LA.
BigOleDickedDaddy
Sorry to hear that Ruby. But at least we know you are going to be OK.
I hope that fact that you has chosen to retire for good do not means you will be absent of this blog.
Well I guess now you can devote your energy to other things. I hope you are sucessfull. As BDD said you are one honest and well grounded sex worker. As you said, almost a quimera.
Ruby you and I dont know each other but I hope you are doing better!
I’m so sorry to hear that Ruby. ð I hope you get better and healthier quick and can overcome this.
Thanks guys! So far so good, no cancer yet.