I am a former xxx actress. I got out of the business about two years ago, and totally out of the sex industry in January 2006. I grew up in a Christian home, but I never really felt accepted anywhere.
I started hanging out in the world, and got my first serious boyfriend. I lost my virginity at the age of 18, and a few months later my boyfriend broke up with me. I was crushed. I went nuts… it was the beginning of the end. I started dancing when I was 18. I was dabbling here and there with drugs- coke, ecstasy, acid, etc. I met a XXX performer who was feature dancing at the club I worked at. She introduced me to her brother and we started dating. Within 2 weeks I packed up and moved to LA.
I was nervous about being on film at first… she also worked at a legal brothel in Nevada and told me I should try working there 1st… so at the age of 19, I became a prostitute. I worked there for about 9 months and then got into XXX. Over the next 4 years, I did somewhere around 200+ movies. I also escorted all over the country as a porn star escort. Yes, porn stars are prostitues too. I got further and further into drugs and the whole lifestyle. I had a string of boyfriends, each one worse than the last.
I have been hospitalized many times- from being physically abused by men, put into rehab at least 4 times, and even put into the LA County General Hospital by the police for a mandatory psychiatric hold. I became horribly addicted to heroin and crack. I left LA and went back to the brothel in Nevada. I had to escape my boyfriend and that lifestyle. I went to an outpatient rehab- did methadone for two days and then got on some pills the doctor said I would be on for months. I took them for a day and a half and then quit cold turkey. I spent another 9 months in hell at the brothel – I was in most ways a prisoner there. I escaped by leaving everything I owned there in January and going to Vegas. I spent a few months in Vegas, then finally came home in April.
I have obviously had angels doing overtime watching out for me the whole time. I O.D.ed at least 3 times, had tricks pull knives on me, have been beaten half to death- the only reason I am still here is God.
NL-Becca (Karla) is living in Louisianna now and according to Shelley Lubben, Karla was devistated by hurricane Gustav and is need of financial help. You can read more here
Was her boyfriend Jack Spade? The one that is/was with Jenny Hendricks?
Hey Becca, were you legally an adult when you made these films? Did they pay you? Okay, good. Now go fuck yourself….
I’m the pornstar who you followed out of Louisiana, I did warn you it would eat you alive if you let it , and you let it. I’m sorry I introduced you to the sex industry, but you wouldn’t take no for an answer, and you fell for my brother, who’s fighting his own demons and addictions, you were very emotionally draining to those around you honey, and you wanted out of that little town, you know I speak the truth. You can tell people it was me, I’ll own it, everyone makes mistakes even (gasp) me.
Ruby, I did not know that. Interesting to know.
Carly (Becca Brat) was been honest saying that in the beginning she liked the sex and the drugs, that that were a scape of the sheltered and narrow life of her small town upbringing. It just got way over hand.
I remember Holly talking about Luke and quoting Freud. If you get into sex too early as in the child abuse survivor sex workers or too late as in the people who come from sheltered backgrounds, you will not know how to handle it an that is what happened to Becca.
Why does every girl Shelly meets need money? Take your fucking ass to Walmart. They are always hiring. I have to work for a living and just because you used to suck cock on film doesnt mean you deserve a handout.
Get a fucking job loser and stop begging.
I find it funny that Shelley Lubben criticizes pornographers from taking advantage of women, as if a)all women are stupid and b)she is genuinely helping them by putting their woe is me chronicles on public display.