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Porn star Alex Sanders, the long-haired golden boy, seems like Allen Bloom's mythical pubescent boy grown up. Born and raised in Michigan to conservative Christian parents, Alex has two brothers and one elder sister. As of June, 1996, he hadn't talked to his parents that year. "I was forced into born-again Christianity. Pure psycho...pure insanity...What a bunch of f---ing self-righteous piece of s--- people they are. Hypocritical motherf---ers. Praising God on one hand, while they're f---ing their baby sitter on the other. I hate Christians. I hate Christians so much. They're so f---ing hypocritical. They praise God out of fear, just like Catholics do. They try to put the fear of God into people so that they can control them instead of giving them freedom to decide [on their own] what's right and wrong. We create the moral majority to decide right and wrong and who's to rule this government. We have a lot of scared people going through life waiting to die so that they can go to heaven. They're not eating meat on Friday or Sunday or fish on Wednesday, and they're not f---ing their brains out... They're not enjoying themselves because they're afraid they won't go to heaven when they die. They do everything to go to heaven." Did Alex ever believe? "f--- no. No way in hell. I was forced to go to church. The only reason I even pretended to go along with it was so I could play on the softball team in church." Alex attended church until 17. "Christians are nice people and they try their best to be good and to help each other. But they need to develop some faith in themselves. If they're ill, they can pray all the want, but if they don't help themselves, they're going to die. They need to be self-aware and rely on their own survival instincts to get through life. They should live life because it's here and not bide time until they die. I don't care if they believe in the Lord, but if He ain't in front of my face, picking up my car off my leg or taking away a fatal disease from my body, He don't exist." A loner and mediocre student in high school, he spent his spare time listening to rock music, reading sci-fi and horror novels (such as Battlefield Earth by L. Ron Hubbard) and watching military movies. Living miles out of town, he had few friends. He spent his spare time riding his ten-speed bike and dreaming about fame and fortune. One day in seventh grade, a teacher told the class that two out of three of them would masturbate by a certain age. Alex decided that night to find out what it was like. He never stopped. (Details 9-96) "If I were to mold myself into any kind of caricature, it would be Tarzan. I've always wanted to achieve his physical prowess and savagery. You'd have to read Edgar Rice Burroughs to realize how intelligent he was portrayed. Tarzan was an intelligent man once he was educated. People don't take Tarzan seriously because they just watch the movies instead of reading Burroughs." Alex used many dirty magazines in his teens "because that's what I had access to. I didn't see a real porno until my last week in the military [Deep Throat]. "Pat Benatar [rock singer] was my everything growing up. I needed someone to worship and she was there. If I could meet her today, I'd thank her profusely. And I also admired The Scorpions. It was the first heavy metal band I got into. I've always wanted to be Rudolf Shenker [rhythm guitarist for The Scorpions]. I want play in front of millions of people. "Music was my religion. It swayed me to make life-changing choices. I packed up my stuff and came out here [LA] to pursue music. "I created [in childhood] a fantasy of what I wanted to be and that's the only individual I try to be. I created five individuals in my fantasy world, based on people I knew in the real world. I created a whole world that I could live in that was much more to my liking [than reality] all the way up to my late teens. I was always creating, very fantasy oriented. "Sooner or later, you're going to meet in the middle of you and this image of what you want to be, and then it's time to let the fantasy go. "In my fantasy world, I was a popular man with beautiful girlfriends. [In reality, Alex was lonely in childhood.] All my fantasy friends were musicians. It was an elaborate world and I created incredible stories. "There are five friends who represented people in my life. They played cover music and were so successful that they traveled the world doing it, performing in front of millions of screaming fans. I also mixed in my military interests. "These [fantasy] people had their own homes and they created a huge empire. I lived there [in fantasy]. "I didn't read anything to make these characters. One was me, one was my best friend, one was a girl I had a crush on, and two others were other girls I knew in highschool. They jammed [played rock 'n roll] everywhere. They played Pat Benatar's music. The girlfriend sang her stuff. "This was a transitional time for me and it was important for me that Pat Benatar and her music were around. I wasn't allowed [by Alex's Christian parents] in high school to interact socially with women. My parents wouldn't even allow me to date. "I wish for the days that I could go back to that fantasy world, 'cause it was a much more interesting place to be [than reality]. And it's sad that you have to forget the fantasy. "You have to grow up and start working for a living. "I don't like doing things that everyone else does because it's in. I wasn't accepted by the in-crowd in high school because I didn't smoke or drink or like their music. That kept me away from doing drugs all my life. I despise drugs. I get high on life. "Playing softball is one of my greatest thrills. The thrill of competition is such a good high. Stretching a single into double and sliding head-first into home plate. "I would give my left nut to be playing in a successful heavy metal band playing in front of millions of people like bands did in the '80s. "Rock music has changed. Party rockers don't exist anymore. Girls don't wear miniskirts. It's all lumberjack shirts, and baggy jeans and combat boots. Back then it was all spandex and high heels and women were women. You could see the curves. The music had melody. Now it's growling death, and grunge has taken over." Alex entered the military at age 18 and left two years later in 1987. "I grew up quicker from being in the military. Every young man should do a little time in the army. It would straighten them out." Alex came to Los Angeles in 1988 to be a rock guitarist. He entered MIT - Musicians Institute of Technology and grew his hair long to fit in with the rock crowd. It became his trademark. "I couldn't imagine myself without the long hair." In a band called Angels Fault, Alex played many small clubs. "Running around on a stage, was one of the best times of my life. I started at 18 and stopped at 27." The band split up because of internal conflicts and Alex helped construct movie sets before getting into porn. "I was f---ing a girl [Corby Wells] who was in the business. And she said I'd be good at it. She hooked me up with Tanya Storm and I started doing porn." Alex's first big movie was for Paul Thomas. He did three scenes in one day, including two with Brittany O'Connell. "That's when people realized that I had talent." Since then Alex has done over 500 sexvids in four years. XRCO voted him Woodsman of the Year in 1994. The next year he created a production company with Johnathan Morgan called Jams Production. It didn't last long but poured out lots of sexvids. Alex produces, directs or stars in flicks such as Sinnocence, Wicked Ways, Sodomania 5, The Mating Pot and Frendz [a take-off of the TV series Friends]. He does numerous fight scenes in Wicked's big-budget pic Conquest. He's written a dozen scripts including Dear Diary and directed about 40 flicks. He does much of his writing while listening to rock ballads which shape his life. Alex can't describe anything unique in his artistic vision other than that it's coming from him, who as a human being, is unique. "You can take the most original idea from your mind, but with today's limited tools, you can't be creative." The long-haired stud doesn't watch himself in sexvids. "People like my sense of humor. They find me hilarious. I make myself look silly in my stuff. And I surround it with good sex." Most of Alex's friends - Jay and Kaitlyn Ashley, Mike and Missy, and Sid Deuce - are in porn. So is the biz a substitute home? "f--- no. You pick and choose your friends otherwise you stay clear off these people. It's a dog-eat-dog world just like the world out there. "At the beginning of my career, I could perform on camera because I had such a strong sex drive. I just wanted to get laid. Now I attribute my performing ability to having a strong mind. "I come from a military background. When you get paid to do a job, you've got to do it. There is no such thing as failure. "After my first few months [in porn], I turned into a mad man. I went full force with a lot of confidence, knocking them out, slamming... Since my second year, I've mellowed out. I work less. I want to become the next George Lucas and direct mainstream sci-fi films. "I don't want to send a message. I just want to make movies for people to enjoy and to get away from their problems. Make you cry, make you laugh. Don't try to figure it out. Why spend our lives tring to figure things out?" Alex says he's too busy to think about issues like God's existence or what happens after death. "I thought about God when I was told to and when I was starving after school...living on macaroni sandwiches and trying to make a living. I tried "having faith in the Lord" for a year-and-a-half and then I got into this business and started working like a motherf---er. I bought a home, leased a nice car, got a motorcycle, produce my own lines (about 12)... I make features and I make a good living. I have no time to think about God. "I've never thought about what I'd like on my tombstone. How about "Who Gives a f---?" If you're spending too much time looking at this tombstone, you should be out doing something better with your life. I say burn me and put me in a bottle. Don't spend money on a f---ing box to put me in a hole. Torch me, save the money and enjoy it. Live life for today. If you've got the money, spend it. If you've got the credit, use it. If you die, who cares? Who's going to pay it? No one. If you go bankrupt, you're f---ed for seven years. But at least you're living life." Millions of men believe that if they could only have sex with the beautiful women Alex does regularly, they would be happy. "They're wrong. They're insane. Having sex with these women doesn't increase my happiness. I'm happy when I'm working and busy. An idle mind is a dangerous thing. It gets you into trouble. "All my life, I've dreamed about having sex with beautiful women...but the desire never stops. You always want more." Alex has never married or been in a long relationship. "I'm physically and mentally incapable of committing to a woman in a relationship. "Doing these beautiful girls doesn't make me any better than other guys out there. I'm getting paid and they're getting paid. Otherwise, it wouldn't happen. It didn't happen before I got paid. I didn't get laid until I was 19. Before I got into this business, I didn't have beautiful women coming up to me and saying, "Why don't you f--- me?" That only started after I got paid money to do it. If I walked into a bar today, I'd get no response from any of these beautiful women. "I wish I had enough money to just throw away on women, to just buy them. It'd save me a lot of headaches." One day on set, while Alex pumped away at some porn girl, he looked up to see Richard Dreyfuss, Timothy Hutton, Buck Henry and Carrie Fisher staring at him. Sanders reportedly told Fisher he was going to be all over her "like Jabba the Hutt." The Hollywood quartet knew the owner of the home where the porn shoot took place. Spinners 2. "Alex Sanders, veteran of high-octane sex scenes and wonderful comic performances, is the latest performer to wash his dirty laundry in public as a writer/director. Plenty of facial rinses lighten the load. Lovette's tempa-cheer rises visibly when Sean Rider agitates her backdoor laundry chute, and Tracy Love's delicate derriere receives similar attention from Jay Ashley's anal overload. Sanders turns the tide by orally washing Eden's crack like an industrial stain remover." (AVN 97) Jim Enright directed Alex in Spirit Guide which has one of adult video's funniest scenes, according to AVN. "Steven St.. Croix (as Alex Sanders' spirit guide), accidentally teleporting himself into Tera Heart's body while she's getting f---ed by Tom Byron. The cutaways between the action and St. Croix's startled "reactions" to getting plowed in the ass are priceless. The well-penned story by Sanders succeeds at being both a witty comedy and sentimental love story, with a reflection on religion thrown in." (AVN 97) One evening in May, 1996, I listened to Alex's conversation with director Jim Enright. Sanders: "Frendz is supposed to be hilarious. I have three actors - Johnathan Morgan, Jay Ashley and Sean Ryder - who are funny actors. And I'm trying to direct two other men how to be funny. You either have it or you don't." Enright breaks in. "That's hard to do. I got so lucky [in the Night series] with Steven St. Croix and Johnathan who have that timing." Sanders: "Frendz is going to be just like the TV show. The title sequence is going to be almost identical...laughter after the gags are done...commercials and a pre-cum rock based on Freedom Rock." Enright: "Remember Kentucky Fried Movie? They were like Saturday Night Live...little skits. I had Ray Victory doing the commercial for Avilene. Use sex commercials that are just gags." Sanders: "I do one. This girl has a huge dildo. And she goes, "Have you ever had that not-so-f---ed feeling? Do you need something extra? Then I've got the thing for you." Enright: "Comedy is where this business should go. Comedy is the untapped region in this business. Everyone does drama, the sex movie and nobody is doing comedy." Luke: "But doesn't comedy kill the viewer's hard-on?" Sanders: "No. We all know that what we're making if for people to jack off to. But for people to notice our work and to get acknowledgment from the magazines, and awards, which is what we really want, we have to either make it funny or dramatic. So we're pleasing the critics. That's my goal. Get the good rating so the company gets good sales so they want to hire me again. If I can make Gene Ross [AVN editor] laugh his ass off...boom!" Enright: "I make these things to please myself. I'll shoot 24 hours in a day to make a good movie. I shoot stories on a Hollywood movie level. If my name is attached to it, people will buy it because they know I make good movies." Alex wrote two scripts for Jim that he turned into movies - Spirit Guide and Lingerie. "I hate doing love stories," says Alex. "I'll do a mysterious evil dark story or I'll do something funny. "Anyone can make a $5000 movie and get people to jack off. "My goal is to take my baby steps into mainstream. I concentrate on the story. Get a good script and build on it. Ninety percent of my directing is in the editing bay. Sex is easy. Just shoot it. Ninety minutes later you're going to have five ten-minute sex scenes and they're going to jack off to it. I don't give a f--- about it. So long as I get the penetrations I'm happy. "I'm new at the pitch game. They don't see product." Enright: "They see an actor and so many actors are calling themselves directors because there is more money in it." Sanders: "If you stepped into someone's backyard, they'd get pissed. That's the survival attitude. [That's why some directors and producers resent actors turning into directors.] A regular director could come from the mainstream and do well, and he'd scare the living daylights out of these guys because he's taking work from them. "But I don't care. In five years, when they're still doing this stuff [porn], I'll be directing mainstream film. I want the opportunity to direct a movie where I don't have to slide five sex scenes into it. Not even one T&A scene. I want to do a movie without love scenes. "I don't do love. I'll do adventure, drama, sci-fi, but I won't do romantic. "f---ing has nothing to do with love. I do believe in love but I don't want it right now. "There's no place for love in the porno business. Either as a story or as a relationship. Relationships don't work in this business. "Love works for a softcore movie for Spice or Adam and Eve cable TV. "There are couples in this business who are in love and married. But they're swingers. They've accepted a life style that is right for them. It's a rare combination. But for the most part, people fall in love, develop emotions, and become upset when that person shows attention to anyone else, works with he wrong person, it causes problems. "To be the strongest male performer you can be in this business, you have to have the most animalistic attitude toward sex. Love has nothing to do with it. You have to want sex anywhere without any consequences. You can't worry about hurting anyone's feelings in the sense of someone at home worrying that you're f---ing the wrong girl. "If you're in love with a woman back home and she's in love with you, and you have to do a romantic sex scene; and to sell that sex scene you've got to get into that girl's head for the 45 minutes you're there. Then one day, your girlfriend comes up to you and says, "I saw you in a movie and you were looking into her eyes the way you look into my eyes." And that s--- just builds. "Honey, I was just acting." And she says "How could you?" "Now that's on your brain. You can't do this or that. I've got to keep my hands tied my sides if I'm at a function. I can't touch anybody. I can't kiss anybody, or hug because this girl will get upset and give me grief because I give someone else a hug. No, relationships do not work [in porn]." Alex knows from experience because he had a relationship early in his porn career with a fellow performer. AVN 5/94 writes: The pretty lady is Veronica Sage, a Mel-Harris-type brunette who lends new meaning to the phrase "cute upturned nose." Contrary to his Attila the Hun screen techniques with most other female performers, Sanders is almost Fabio-like when he talks about Sage. He gets gushy and continental and uses words like "romance" to describe their screen encounters. The two most recent examples are their two scenes in The Butt Sisters Do Los Angeles. "Veronica will always be my favorite lady. An emotional bond projects when we perform together." Veronica fits his description of the perfect woman - one who is demure, soft and sweet but f---s with abandon. Sanders first met Veronica on a Paul Thomas set. It was her first-ever scene in the business and she was shy. He took an instant liking to her but didn't see her for another month. They've been a romantic item ever since. As in almost all boyfriend-girlfriend situations in the business, Sanders has had to contend with the green-eyed monster of emotional heartburn but deals with it in detached terms. "I'm human, but I'm a businessman too. If I couldn't handle watching my girlfriend having sex with another man, I'd leave the room. "Once, Veronica and I were on a set together for an orgy. I was having problems with her being with another guy, so I just focused on my partner Christina Angel." Alex the animal is well-liked by female performers because he's so sensitive. "You f--- them like an animal but you show them respect. You can't just slam the hell out of them. You have to know what's allowed. When they're in pain, you stop. When they want you to do something else, you do it. It's about respect. You can still be animalistic. It's not in your actions as much as in your attitude and intensity. "I can fall in love with each girl if I want to, but as soon as the scene is over, it's gone. If I really like the girl, I'll get into her head. I'll talk s--- to her through the whole scene and in essence, merge as one at that moment. But once it's over, turn it off. "I ask girls if there's something particular that they like or dislike. I pay attention to what's going on during the sex scene. Acknowledge what is working and what is not. Most men don't pay enough attention to their lovers to find out what makes them feel good. They just concentrate on what gets them off. If you find a spot on her that turns her on, or c certain words that get you going. But the bottom line is, if she says stop, you stop. "R-rated movies don't know how to do sex. It's pretty, Playboy style...but rarely do they touch on the savage side...except for Leaving Las Vegas. That rape scene turned a lot of guys on. And the rape scene in Deathwish 2! The turn on is the struggle and power...forcing a woman to have sex. And a lot of women like to be taken and choked...pull their hair and slap their face. It's something deep in our core. If they ever allow us to do rape scenes in X it's going to be good days. "Gregory Dark is the most unbelievably strange person I've ever met. But I'm starting to understand where he's coming from. He takes the most beautiful young lady and surrounds her with the ugliest, most surrealistic things and it shows her beauty all the more. Put a man in an ugly clown suit and have him f--- this beautiful girl. "I can shut off my emotions on a dime. This business hasn't affected me a bit. I can fall in love but I won't let myself. "I will not stay in one place at one time. I always want to move on and learn something new. If I ever achieve success as a mainstream director, I'll move on to something better. "People who know me
best would describe me as crabby and serious about business. "People are trying to make pornography interesting. What they're doing is taking the same old same old, putting it in a new format, and calling it brand new. Be it Hi8 or Betacam or film or CD ROM; it's a new format but the same old stuff. We're running out of holes to fill. We're running out of dicks to put in each hole. Eventually they're going to have to go back to boy-girl sex. Right now anal sex is the thing. Double anal, triple anal...Five-hundred thousand guys on one girl. European nasty porn. Have a dog f---ing a girl." Alex does many martial arts and fight scenes in Conquest. "I'll do it all for you," Alex told the producer, "swinging from ropes and everything. But you better use it." "I practiced that swinging gun thing for Western Nights and they never used it. I even did the splits in Conquest in a fight scene. So now everyone [in Porn Valley] wants to hire me as a stunt man. "I used to spar in tournaments when I was in the army. I love fighting. I have so much pent up aggression that I could really hurt somebody. I have a low tolerance for bulls---. "If they just let everybody loose for one day with no rules. There'd be so much death," says Alex Sanders with a smile on his face. "Envision an F16 with a full clip on a rooftop. Pow, pow, powowowowo... You'd have so many dead people, especially in LA. So much hatred. "I'm not a flower child love everybody kind of guy." Alex directs his hatred into competition. He hates Christianity "because it was forced upon me. I hate hypocrisy. I hate people who don't understand the concept of loyalty and the code of honor. There's an individual here [on the set] today who's trying to steal my best friend's wife. He revealed this information about my friend which caused a rift in his marriage to better himself." Alex doesn't know where this honor code is found. "It certainly doesn't come from Sinai," says Alex. "It's just written into the universe. It's a guy thing. Don't f--- with another man's wife... I don't know where it came from. "I guess we all decide individually what's right and wrong. It's something you feel. I had my first girlfriend [Veronica Sage] stolen from me by a man [Lucky Smith] in this business. He promised her the world and she was taken from me. It still hurts." The hurt that Sanders still feels from that affair causes him to dismiss the possibility of love in porn. Lucky sought to have Sanders removed from all shoots using any of his contract girls. To stop himself from
ejaculating, Alex slams his dick against a door or table. Or he thinks
about unpaid bills.
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