Natalia Cruze Interview

I chat with 2005 Penthouse Pet of the Year runner-up Natalia Cruze, 23, Friday morning (2/4/05) as she drives to the airport.

(I found out later she hates the people who own and operate www.nataliacruze.com. They have hardcore pictures of her, including one with a male appendage in her mouth.)

Luke: "When you were a little girl, what did you want to be when you grew up?"

Natalia: "A paleontologist. I was fascinated with rocks. I found rocks with prehistoric shells in them in my front yard [in Vancouver] all the time."

Luke: "Why didn't you?"

Natalia: "As I got older, I went to a theater high school. I was a member of a theater company. When I was 14, I started modeling. I was doing runway modeling. I didn't mind walking around naked in front of 2000 people. It was popular at the time to have models naked on the catwalk bodypainted. I did a lot of for charity, for AIDS, for Nepal.

"When my mom found out, she said, you should get paid for it. I don't think she meant Penthouse."

Luke: "Were you always cute?"

Natalia: "No. I was definitely an ugly duckling in high school. I was awkward and skinny and my nose was too big for my face.

"I moved to Arizona when I was 18."

Luke: "How was your experience of the Howard Stern show?"

Natalia: "Howard was a gentleman, surprisingly enough. It was a little bit personal because my publicist talked about stuff to him that I didn't want to talk about."

Luke: "You mean the rape things?"

Natalia: "Yeah. I didn't want to talk about that on Howard. Other than that, it was fine."

Luke: "Is it true that you only want to sleep with black guys?"

Natalia: "It's not that I want to. It's that I psychologically can't sleep with white [or pale] men. I can't have a sexual relationship with someone with pale skin because of that stuff."

Luke: "What were the ramifications of you spilling all this on the Howard Stern show?"

Natalia: "My publicist went and told him all this stuff. He asked me about it and I clarified."

Luke: "So what do you love and what do you not love about being a nude model?"

Natalia: "I love it because it's reclaiming my sexuality and making it mine again. Sometimes I hate it because I'd much rather be doing mainstream stuff. It's a pain in the ass when you are a known entity in the adult world. A lot of people will resent you for that."

Luke: "Do you want to get married and have kids one day?"

Natalia: "Yes. I've been married, but I want to marry again."

Luke: "When did you first get tattoos?"

Natalia: "When I was 14."

Luke: "Why?"

Natalia: "Because I've always been a little rebel kid needing to do own thing all the time. When I was 17, I started the big one on my back. My dragon. It's been ongoing for five years now."

Luke: "If you weren't a nude model, what would you do for a living?"

Natalia: "If mainstream modeling doesn't work out, I plan on going back to school to become a doctor of naturopathic medicine. That would take eight years."

Luke: "Were you a good student in high school?"

Natalia: "I have a photographic memory. If I read something a couple of times, I've got it memorized. I never went to class or did my homework but I aced all the tests."

Luke: "What kind of kids did you hang out with in high school?"

Natalia: "Half were punk rock kids on drugs and the other half were hippies on drugs."

Luke: "How would your close friends describe you?"

Natalia: "A little bit strange but upbeat. Peculiar but happy."

Luke: "What's peculiar about you aside from being a nude model?"

Natalia: "A lot of my ideas on religion and philosophy."

Luke: "What are your most controversial ideas on religion?"

Natalia: "I am interested in all faith traditions. My spiritual path is reverent to the earth. It fits in with my yoga practice. I do personal healings."

Luke: "That doesn't seem terribly strange."

Natalia: "When you get into it... I study a lot of stuff about Zen Buddhism and Tantra. It's really different from a lot of people's views. I grew up in a Christian household. Lutheran."

Luke: "By what age did you rebel against that?"

Natalia: "Fourteen."

Luke: "A lot of things happened then. It sounds like the most important year of your life."

Natalia: "I guess so. I lived in Winnipeg when I was 13. That was difficult to leave all my friends. At 14, I came back to Vancouver. Everything had changed. All my views on life. My parents stuck me in this Mennonite school for a year. I hated it. I became a bad-ass. It is against the Mennonite religion to drink alcohol or to dance."

Luke: "How do you determine what is right and wrong?"

Natalia: "If it doesn't hurt anyone, then I'd say that it is ok."

Luke: "Who are your favorite philosophers?"

Natalia: "My favorite philosophers?"

Luke: "You said your friends thought you were strange because of your religious and philosophical views."

Natalia: "I wouldn't say philosophers in general. I've done a lot of study of religious philosophy -- Hinduism, the Bhai faith and paganism in general."

Luke: "Do you think you might become Hindu or Bhai or commit to one path?"

Natalia: "One day. I like to study all religions -- the Bible, parts of the Torah, some of the Koran and Buddhist scriptures and try to understand as much of it as possible."

Luke: "Have you been to synagogues, mosques and temples?"

Natalia: "I've never been to a synagogue or mosque. Mostly I confine myself to reading the scriptures. My path is solitary. There is nobody I know who is seeking like I am to discuss all of it with."

Luke: "Why don't you seek out a mentor?"

Natalia: "That's one thing I should be doing but my schedule's so busy. I'd like to seek out a guru. But as I travel two-to-three weeks out of the month, when I'm home, I'm too tired."

Luke: "What are you doing?"

Natalia: "I'm doing promotions. I'm on shoots. I'm on my way to Jacksonville right now to host a [Super Bowl] party with Lloyd Bates."

Luke: "Will you do boy-girl sex scenes?"

Natalia: "Oh no. I'd like to move more into mainstream, so I definitely would not like to work with men."

Luke: "How does your boyfriend feel about you being a nude model?"

Natalia: "He doesn't mind as long as I don't work with men."

Luke: "What was it like to start showing up in magazines?"

Natalia: "It's funny because I always get the cover. I've had 15-20 covers. I'm sort of proud of that."

Luke: "You mentioned that most of your friends in high school were using drugs. So what is your use of drugs today?"

Natalia: "I experimented a lot when I was a kid. I never got addicted to anything, so it didn't affect me when I left high school and didn't do them anymore."

Luke: "How have your parents reacted to your nude modeling?"

Natalia: "My mom cried. My father was cool with it. I'm sure they'd both like to see me doing something else."

Geed writes: "natalia like a lot of other porn sluts has done boy/girl porn on karadavis.com with a white guy and another with another white guy . I particullaly like your site but please take off the kids gloves with these girls if you take of your clothes thinking that it may lead to fame more often than not you end up in porn in one form or fashion.on both occassions she didn't seem truamatized or maybe it slippedher mind."

Natalia Cruze's Rape Stories

Penthouse Pet of the Year runner-up tells them on Stern reports Gene Ross:

Cruze, who is from Canada, stated that she only dates black guys. "it's a psychological problem that I have," said Cruz. As illustration, Stern pointed out that Cruze had been raped three times by three different white guys. Cruze said she has a lot of friends who are white guys. "Until they try to touch me they're my friends," she said. Cruze said it's not so much a flashback to the rapes as the fact that it now disgusts her. Cruze said the rapes occurred in Canada between the ages of 15-17. "Different guys." Explaining her "exotic" background, Cruze said her father was from Romania and that his ancestors were gypsies from the Transylvania mountains.

Stern suggested that because there are no black guys in Canada, Cruze probably came to the states to get dates. "I wouldn't date a white Canadian, either," Stern said. Cruze explained that one of the rapists was an older guy who was 50; and the other two were men she was dating at the time. Cruz called the police on one of the rapists. "But they didn't believe me." Cruz said she fought the guy off but there was no evidence. "He was always kind of violent."

Cruze's parents came home while she was in the state of hysteria. "But they only thought he hit me." Cruze didn't report the second rapist. "It wasn't even a relationship," she said. "It was some guy I knew. I went to his house. I never seen him drunk before and he was violent. He was drunk when I got there." Cruze said the guy took her caveman-style. Cruze then ran down the street with no shoes on. Stern suggested that Cruze should have been walking around with metal panties on given her track record for sexual assaults. "Did you know you were this hot that guys can't resist you?"