Lisa Skeirys

Lisa, Chloe in 2003 Lisa, Chloe, Zia (nightclub owner)

Lisa calls me back Saturday night, June 25, 2005. We've been calling and missing each other for more than three weeks.

Lisa: "I don't want to get into the he-said, she-said drama, but I was reading on the site some misconceptions about Chris Miguez [the man in Chloe's life her last 18-months] that I wanted to clear up, and I know you're the person to turn to for that.

"I've been in touch with [Melinda's] sisters Michelle and Melanie. No one knows you like family. Chris has defaced her family. I know Chloe would be turning over in her grave for something like that to happen.

"He tries to come across as this big businessman. He talks about how he's this big project manager at an oil and gas company. I think he's been watching too many episodes of The Apprentice because the boy has no degree. He is a known methamphetamine user. I swear to you this on my father's grave. This is when he had first met Dee. During one of our trips to Austin, he was crying to me that he had no job, no car. He had just been evicted from his home by a gentleman Johnny Lisotta (who died about a week ago). Between three guys, they couldn't come up with the rent.

"Chris is a bottom feeder. He said my ex-boyfriend was a large drug dealer. He did have people on his payroll who worked for him and sold drugs. Then there were the bottom feeders. That's what Chris was. That's how everybody refers to him in this area. Bottomfeeders are people you could give the drugs to and they were skim their use off the top because they were users, and they would sell what they could, and then they would come back with money.

"When Chris met Dee, he had no job, no car, and no house. She was interested in a friend of his named Charlie Dixon. He's a terrific guy. He owns tanning salons. He is a real businessman, but he hung out with a crazy crowd. Melinda and Charlie had a thing for a little while. Then that didn't work out. Chris saw a way in. That's when he took it."

Luke: "Chris says he's been a project manager for eight years."

Lisa: "That's funny. He didn't even have a job. I don't know what he does. He might be working somewhere. He says he was with Dee for three years. No. They were together about 18-months. He is not a project manager.

"My fiancee works as an IT (Information Technology) director for a large firm in Houston. While we were in Austin, Chris asked me if my fiancee could get him a job. I said, Chris, do you even have a college degree? I knew he didn't. I said, you're going to have to go to school to get a degree to do anything. Nobody, especially in Houston, is going to hire you without a degree. It's not just a degree. You have to have a big degree from somewhere like the University of Texas or Texas A&M. I have a degree (BS) from the University of Texas.

"Another thing that upset me was his dogging on Dee's husband Mike Taylor. Mike is a standup man. He stayed with Dee for nine years. Chris says Mike mentally and physically abused her for nine years and that was her downfall. It's funny that she was with Mike for nine years and she was fine. Mike kept her in line. He did love her and the kids. She meets Chris Miguez and 18-months later she's gone from us. His stories don't hold water. He drug her down.

"He talks about how he made so much money. In the same sentence, he talks about how he had to work two jobs. If he's making so much money and he's taking care of Dee and being the standup guy, why does Dee have to do escort work? Why did she have to go out and do these degrading things that she hated doing?

"Chris is a bottom-feeder. He might be working desktop support but he's not a project manager for a large firm. He's been in trouble. There's a DEA agent named Cartwright who can attest to that. If you're going to work for a large firm, they're going to do a background check on you.

"Chloe used to call him her gopher. He would do anything he said. I was reading about her last night. He said he went to the Jack in the Box for her. That's exactly how their relationship was. If she told him to do something, he did it, because he knew if he didn't, he was out. He doesn't have anything. Right now he's leaving off of the money that Dee left, the money she got from the National Enquirer and from escorting and residuals and her website. In six months, he'll be back on the streets with nothing unless he finds another girl who's sucker enough to take him in.

"I know that Dee probably grew to love him at the end, but sadly, the only reason she was with him at the end was that no one else would have her. She was just gone. Just like on our last trip to Austin... He says she called him in the middle of the night and said she didn't trust me and wanted him to come. Here's the story on that.

"Dee and I had worked at the Yellow Rose [strip club in Austin] the night before. The manager is a black gentleman. He can back this story up.

"The first night Dee and I got to Austin [in November of 2003]... She had called me and said, 'Please go with me.' She was very assertive but at the same time, codependent. She could not be alone.

"I agreed to go with her. I knew she was upset about Mike leaving her. I knew what kind of person Chris was. I knew he would drag her down. The whole time Chris was, as Dee would put it, 'smoking up my phone.' He would call her until she'd have to turn it off.

"The first night [in Austin], we got there too late to go to work. We had a little girl's night. We did make-up and talked about how we hadn't seen each other in eight months. She'd give me Lortab, a strong form of Vicodin. She'd take five to ten at a time. I can't take any because they just make me tired. I'd just throw them in my suitcase.

"Second night, we went to the Yellow Rose. As a feature dancer, she set up her little area. She was signing DVDs and pictures. I was off on the floor working [stripping].

"After we'd been there for three hours, a bouncer comes up to me and says, 'Something is seriously wrong with your friend.' I get to the table and she's slumped over the table. The contents of her purse are spilled everywhere. There's money all over the floor. Men were walking up, grabbing DVDs, and walking off without paying for them. All of the money that both of us had made that night was gone.

"They carried her to the back. I didn't realize it was that bad. Dee was still living with Mike. Mike warned me about her. 'You're making a mistake. But go have a good time. If you have any problems, call me.'

"I go up front and gather her DVDs. When I return, they've got her set up with water and coffee, trying to get her to come around.

"The manager went through her purse, which was totally spilled open. He said, 'Here's the problem.' He holds up a bottle of Lortab, a bottle of Xanax and a bottle of Stoma. There were maybe ten tabs left of each. I have no idea of how many she took.

"She goes into a seizure. The manager wants to call an ambulance. Because my degree is in Clinical Laboratory Science, I agreed. Then she comes around. Whenever she came out of a seizure, she wouldn't remember anything and she'd just be mad at the world.

"She looked at me and said, 'Take me back to the hotel.' I said, you realize that we don't have any money. You lost all the money.'

"I put the hotel room on our credit card. She lies down. I went to get her something to eat. She's going through her purse. I said, 'You've taken all your pills.' She said, 'I have ten left. That can get me through the night. There's no way I can make it through tomorrow.'

I said, 'Let's pack up and go home.' I knew I had 20 pills in my suitcase. I didn't want to give them back to her in case she overdosed again.

"Dee is a crazy girl. She said, 'Watch this.' She called Chris and said she had a girl in Austin who was willing to pay $10 per pill for Lortab and to get as many he could and to borrow a car and bring them up here.

"I said, there's no way anyone will do that. She's laughing. 'We're here to make money. I lost your money tonight. I'll make it up to you tomorrow. I can't get by without the pills.'

"Sure enough, Chris showed up without the pills.

"The next night, she tried to go to work at the Yellow Rose. I said, you're barred. They're not going to let you work.

"She said, oh yes they are.

"That's why I had to laugh when Chris said she said I took money from her. She was the type of girl who, if I had taken money from her, would've said, 'Why the hell did you take my money?' She was ballsy.

"On the third night, she ended up working at this hole-in-the-wall. I didn't even try to work there. It was nasty. Chris tried to pose as her manager.

"Dee did the same thing as the last night. She overdoses and goes into seizures. Chris yells at me: 'You knew there was no other girl to get those pills. You knew she was taking them.' He was taking about a handful too.

"I said, 'That's between you and her. I didn't have anything to do with that. I don't take the things. You take it up with her when you get home.'

"On the way home, she starts having seizures in the truck. We have to pull over. She comes out of her seizure. She yells at him: 'What are you doing here? Why the hell are you following me?' He's like, 'You called me. Lisa's in the back. She'll attest to that.' I said, 'Dee, you called him. You asked him to come up here.'

"We get back to the hotel room. She's out. He was crying. He said, 'Why is she so mean to me? I don't understand.'

"I said, 'I'm seeing a side of her that I haven't seen before. I haven't seen her this bad. She's not normally like this. Let her wake-up. I'm sure things are going to be ok.'

"That's when he starts whining that he has no job. I said, maybe my boyfriend of the time can help you get a job. That's when I asked Chris about the degree. I knew he didn't have one. I was trying to let him down easy.

"The next day, we packed up and went home. We were in Dee's big Harley Davidson black truck. He was in someone's Camaro he'd borrowed.

"Chris now drives Dee's black truck. I don't think the boy's had a car of his own.

"We're midway home, and Dee goes into a laughing fit. She says, 'I got my key [to her apartment] back.' She'd taken it off of Chris's keychain. She throws it out the window and hits another car with it. These people are furious because they think she's thrown something at their car. The lady rolls down her window and says, 'Bitch, what did you hit my car with?' Dee responds: 'F--- you.' And acts like she's going to run them off the road.

"Dee and I talked on the way home. She said, 'I've got to get rid of Chris. He has no job.'

"But the bottom line is that she's the type of girl who can't be alone. Mike was done with it. He was had it with the pills. Dee just stayed with Chris for the security. He did pull in some money from his drug dealing, from methamphetamines and stuff. He probably did help pay for some of the rent. I know that Dee wouldn't let him live there for free."

Luke: "When did you stop working as a stripper?"

Lisa: "I started working as, I like to refer to it as dancer now that I have a degree. I think I was 22. I did that for about three years. Then I met my ex-boyfriend who was the drug dealer. It was clean. He never got his hands dirty. He wasn't the one selling the drugs. He didn't use.

"We had a beautiful house. I drove a BMW and a Ford Mustang convertible. He took good care of me. I worked at Team Mates just for fun because Dee worked there. I was a shot girl for about three years [from age 25 -28]. I walked around selling shots [of liquor]. Then I went back to school and got my degree. I'm a cell biologist.

"Dee wasn't stupid. When she wanted something, she got it. If she had wanted to marry Chris, it would've happened. I saw her set her sights on Playboy and Mike Taylor. She got both of those."

Luke: "Weren't you working as a dancer with Dee in November of 2003?"

Lisa: "Yes. It was out of the blue. I had no intentions of dancing. When I got there, the guys in the Yellow Rose remembered. Dee and I traveled when we were younger. I was 22. She was 18. We'd go to Austin and work. The manager had stayed the same at the Yellow Rose. He said, 'Come on. Give it a shot.' I thought, I have all these student loans. I might as well do it.

"That was the first and last time in about seven years. I now work at a hospital as a cell biologist."

Luke: "You met Chloe at Team Mates when you were 22?"

Lisa: "Yes. It was 1992. Dee was 17 going on 18 but she had an ID that said she was 18. I always knew there were better things to come from her because she was beautiful. She was drop-dead gorgeous.

"What drug her down was the [porn] industry. When she was with Mike, her husband, she was fine.

"She and I had a long talk. She wasn't comfortable with that [porn]. That's why she turned to the pills, so she could perform. She said to me, 'I can't do this without those pills. It's horrible. It feels like you are being raped and a bunch of people are watching. It's a horrible feeling.'

"It's hard to hear that when you are someone's friend. I said, 'Dee, just get out of it.' But there's always someone there to offer more money. Sometimes she would do [porn] and the checks would bounce.

"She moved back to Houston [around 2001]. She'd make frequent trips back [to LA] to do a movie or to do promotions. She was going around the country feature dancing. She just got caught up in it. It was easy money. She stayed with it.

"After Chloe quit working with Mike, and started working with strangers, she went downhill. Dee was a porn star but she was not promiscuous in her personal life.

"She told me, 'I'll never do anal.' Well, when somebody came along and offered her enough money to do that, she did it. Everything she said that she'd never do, that she'd never stoop to this level, someone would come along and offer her enough money. She'd feel awful about that.

"She was getting close to her sister Michelle [in late 2003]. I said, 'Dee, go live with her. Get away.' But with Dee, there was always a reason to stay.

"Dee had one other tried-and-true friend. Chris Hawn from Beaumont, Texas. He, like everyone else [who knew her], will attest that porn started her downfall but Chris [Miguez] just dragged her down. Mike helped out a lot. He kept the kids. But to add someone into that equation who had no job, no car, no place to live. I think that bothered her. Here she was supporting this loser, but at the same time, she couldn't get away because she wanted to be alone. There wasn't anybody else who wanted her. She looked bad. Her intestines had blocked up. She looked four months pregnant."

Luke: Tell me about your falling out with Dee.

Lisa: "On a Sunday [in November 2003], we laughed all the way home [to Austin]. When I got home, I realized that my money (about $400) was gone.

"Thinking back on it, I remember when Chris asked me to help him find a job. He asked me if he could borrow $5 to get something to eat. He was hungry and he didn't want to wake Dee up and ask her for money.

"Dee told me that he went through her purse all the time. 'He steals money. He steals pills. I don't trust him. Keep an eye on him.' Stupid me, I get into my luggage and, 'Here's $20. When she comes around, she's going to be hungry.'

"I know he knew where the money was. Dee would never steal from another person.

"I called her up. She said, 'I'm going to talk to him. I can't believe he would do that to my friend.' She called me back and said, 'He said he didn't do it.' I said, 'Who are you going to believe here, Dee? I've been your friend for eleven years. He's going to be your downfall. Don't call me or ask for any more favors until you make him admit that he took that money from me.'

"She was hurt. 'I can't believe you're throwing away our friendship after eleven years.' I said, 'No, Dee, you're the one throwing it away. You need to get him out. He's dragging you down.'

"She said, 'I know.'

"To this day, I regret it.

"The other day, I found out from my sister who ran into Chris Hawn that she had tried to call me about a year ago and my phone number had changed.

"I always meant to get with Chris Hawn and give him my new number. I will always want to know what did she have to say.

"I always thought Dee and I would be friends forever. I thought there'd be more time. She hurt me [in November of 2003]. In turn, I said some ugly things [on uselessjunk.com] that should never have been said.

"When I met Dee, she was with Kurt Stoneking from Orange, Texas. Kurt is the father of little Chloe. Mike Taylor adopted little Chloe. Mike is a wonderful father and he was a wonderful husband to Dee.

"When I got back from Austin and walked in the door, Mike Taylor said, 'I told you.' I was like, I haven't even said anything yet. He said, 'I know. But I told, right?' I said, 'Yeah.' He said, 'I know something bad happened.'

"I said, 'We've got to get her some help.' He said, "I have tried and tried and tried. She won't get help. She won't even get help when I bring up the kids. And now she's got this Chris guy hanging around. What can I do? She's an adult. I can't force her to do anything. I'm washing my hands of it and I'm getting out.'

"On the way home, she said, 'How could I go from being with a guy like Mike (handsome, family-oriented) to a guy like Chris?' I will never forget that. I can't help but wonder if she had called me and got a hold of me..."

Luke: "Chris sounded very convincing over the phone."

Lisa: "He sounds convincing. He's charismatic."

Luke: "He's a good con man?"

Lisa: "Oh yeah.

"Chris admitted to me that was an ice (methamphetamine) user and that he was trying to kick that habit, which I doubt he ever did."

Luke: "Chris said Chloe had a metal rod in her right arm because of some fight she had with Mike."

Lisa: "Chloe was a big storyteller, just like the story about leukemia. I said to her, 'Chloe, you don't have leukemia.' And she laugh and say, 'I know but it's a good story.'

"Chloe told me that [medal rod] came when she and Mike had a fight and she fell down some stairs and shattered her arm.

"She told me that one time when she was escorting for Nicis Girls [circa 1995], she got beat up by a client. [Not the baseball bat attack in an alley.] She went to a hotel. This guy wasn't screened well. He was a maniac. He beat her within an inch of her life.

"I've never heard the baseball bat story but there were certain things if Chloe were embarrassed about, she wouldn't share with anyone else. Mike is a standup guy. If he said it, I believe it. She and Mike would fight, but Mike would never lay a hand on her.

"Dee did have a lot of men who would take advantage of her. She'd have people say to her, come out to LA. You only have to do three scenes and I'll write you a check for $3,000. Then the check would bounce. Her check for Chloe Jones: You Don't Know Me 1 & 2 [directed by John Bowen] bounced.

"I told her to go to the DA's office and file charges. I think she eventually got paid for that Brazil trip."

Luke: "Did Chloe blame anyone in particular for the bounced check?"

Lisa: "No. She wasn't one to put blame on anyone. She wasn't whiney. She didn't say poor me, or whoa is me. If she thought I had taken her money, she would've stood up to me. She was a get-in-the-face girl. If someone did cross her, they were in for a handful."

Luke: "It's interesting that she found the pornography so much more upsetting than the escorting."

Lisa: "Part of it was that she didn't like people watching. There's lighting. You've got to be on-cue. She said, I can't be myself. It was easier with the escorting. She wasn't putting on a performance. She could be with a gentleman, get money out of it, and come home and do something nice for her kids. She like a lioness for her cubs.

"Dee was like a little sister to me. I wanted to protect her. Sometimes she would get into trouble with her storytelling and someone would get mad. And I'd tell them, 'You back off and leave her alone. You deal with me.' She was never stable. She always had issues. There was always something you wanted to protect her from."

Luke: "Chris says her sisters stole from her her entire life."

Lisa: "That is so not true. Why would they do that? Both of her sister's have degrees. They have good jobs. Dee was not a thief and her family is the same way.

"This story about her sisters trashing the hotel room, I believe it is true. You don't cross the Jones sisters. If they felt crossed, they would do anything they could to cost him money and to cause him grief. I have to give them a big hooray for that."

I relay to Lisa a story that Chris told me about Michelle on the night of the funeral.

Lisa: "That's Chris for you. Being the conman that he is, that's Chris's way to try to take the heat off of him."

Luke: "You wouldn't be surprised if Chris made up a story to defame Michelle?"

Lisa: "Right.

"For those who say Mike was a sellout [for going on A Current Affair], Mike has three children to take care of. I've seen Mike give Chloe money. They hadn't worked out child support. He gave her $300 the night before we left for Austin [in November, 2003].

"He said to me, 'Give it a shot, Lisa. You were her friend before I met her. Maybe you can talk some sense into her.'"

Luke: "What type of work does Mike do?"

Lisa: "Currently, I don't know. Before, Mike did computer graphics. He did a lot of things on Chloe's website. The arrangement was that she could make more money. He would stay at home and be Mr. Dad.

"There were many times when Mike said, give it up and I'll go to work. But she wasn't willing to give up the lifestyle she was accustomed to.

"Mike is very intelligent. He started college. He had to drop out after the twins were born.

"Mike admitted that they made a lot of money in the first two years of their marriage and they went on a spree.

"He told me [in November of 2003], 'Lisa, she's going to overdose on pills and go into seizures.'

"They'd been separated for six months but they were still living together as husband and wife. I don't think they ever planned on going through with that divorce. It was always Dee's hope that she would clean up and she and Mike would work things out.

"Mike said, 'I don't know what she's doing with [Chris]. She tells me he's just a friend. I don't know. I'm done. I'm out. I can't deal with the seizures, the pills. I don't want the kids around it. I'm going.'

"To pair someone with a liver disease with a methamphetamine user is a recipe for disaster."

Luke: "Chris says you were trying to capitalize on Dee."

Lisa: "Chris says everyone is trying to capitalize on Dee, and like Chris said, there's not much to capitalize on.

"If I were trying to capitalize off her, I'd have her pictures and stuff on EBay like Chris does. I've got a stack of about 25 8x10 glossies she signed for me on our Austin trip. She was full of herself. 'Look, you're in school and I'm proud of you. Take these pictures and sell them and use them to pay off your student loans. I have cards and letters from her. You weren't the only person who called me. There were people who offered me money to talk about it.

"When I read the things that Chris said, the blatant lies, I had to point out the blatant discrepencies The people he's dogging on, such as Michelle and Melanie, were the people Dee loved, me included."

Luke: "How did Dee regard her sisters and her mom?"

Lisa: "She was very close to her mom. She and her mom were two peas in a pod. They lived for drama. If there was no drama, they'd make up drama.

"Dee and I used to stay at Michelle's house in Austin. I remember one day it was sprinkling. Dee had the top down on her convertible, thinking it was sunny. We get to a stoplight. There are some guys beside us who she thinks are cute. She starts revving up the engine. I'm like, 'Dee, the road is wet. Don't do this.' The guys are playing along. They were smart enough to realize the roads were slick.

"She took off, hit a curb, pulled both of her tires off the car. Michelle had to come get us. Michelle was laughing. 'What the hell did you girls do to this car?' Michelle was like Dee's mom when she was around. She was like me. Whenever the drama would get too deep, Michelle would look at her and say, 'Don't do that with me because I know you.'

"Dee had her times when she was estranged from her sisters. When she was traveling or doing things, but they were never far from her heart."

Luke: "You never got the sense that Dee's sisters were trying to financially exploit her?"

Lisa: "No. They don't want that. Michelle had been contacted by A Current Affair and she was like, no comment. I know she's going through a divorce and she needs money... The only person we've spoken to is you because you don't have an agenda. We read some stuff about you online and saw that you were really credible, really fair. You weren't coming out to exploit anyone. You didn't put yourself out there and say, 'I know a little bit about her.' You just said, 'I don't know her. I want to put the truth out there.' You didn't come at us trying to exploit her. 'Here's some money.' If we wanted to exploit her, we would've. Instead we came to you for the truth.

"Melanie at first was angry with me [for what Lisa posted about Chloe Jones on Uselessjunk.com]. 'How dare you post those things.'

"I wrote her back. 'Melanie, you know the things Chloe and I went through.' It's like Michelle, Melanie and I were sisters.

"The Charlie Sheen story she leaked to the National Enquirer [in March 2005] should've stayed behind closed doors. I don't know Denise Richards. I don't have any children of my own. I wouldn't want to be a woman seven months pregnant and have someone come out and say, 'I slept with your husband and this is what happened.'

"I thought Dee was stooping to an all-time low, but I guarantee the person behind that was Chris. I bet he said, 'There's a story we can sell. Let's do it.' Do you know how many times Dee could've sold this story (or stories about other clients) before she knew Chris? She didn't start exploiting people until Chris came around and he drug her down so much she no choice but to stoop to those levels to get money. Now I can understand why she did those things."

Luke: "Did Dee talk to you about her childhood?"

Lisa: "No. That was a closed book. She told me, 'I tried to kill myself when I was 13.' She did tell me she'd been in the Beaumont Neurological Center and that they had raped her.

"If there was something that really hurt Dee or embarrassed her, she would shut that out. It was her way of pretending it didn't happen.

"For as much as she handled, I think she handled it damn well."

Luke: "How did Mike Taylor let his wife escort?"

Lisa: "When she was married to Mike, she didn't escort, except for when she'd take off and not tell Mike. She'd tell him she was off to California to do some pictures or something for Playboy. Mike wouldn't have dealt with that well. Mike never wanted to do porn. When she got offered the money, she said to him, I don't want to do this with a stranger.

"Dee told me, 'Mike said that if I ever pull a stunt like that again [escorting], he and the kids were gone."

Luke: "He said on A Current Affair that he spoke to Charlie Sheen, who sent a limo to pick up Chloe. The limo driver gave Mike a bottle of Crown Royalle and then the driver took Chloe to the airport and she spent a few days with Charlie Sheen."

Lisa: "I can't imagine Mike doing that. In his defense, if she had been offered an extraordinarily large amount of money, Mike may have been able to turn the other cheek that one time."

Luke: "You've lived an extraordinary life from dancer to cell biologist."

Lisa: "I've lived a crazy life. My ex was a large drug dealer. We lived in a beautiful three-story house. We drove BMWs. The people he worked for would send limos for us. I've lived an extravagant life and I don't regret any of it. I always knew I'd go back to school and get a degree in something medical. I couldn't afford medical school."

Lisa got into a flame war on ConservativeThinking.com about the death penalty for juveniles.

Lisa and her last boyfriend donated to, and fundraised for, the Harlequin Haven Great Dane and Saint Bernard Rescue project. "I sent them a bunch of my jewelry to auction off on Ebay. I had way too much."

Skeirys' donates her time to good causes. "I learned the value of life working with battered women and children at the Ronald McDonald House in Galveston, Texas... There'd be days I was driving home in a BMW thinking, 'I just left behind someone who doesn't know what tomorrow holds for her.'

"I'll never forget a lady named Sandra. She was around my age. I told her, 'It is never too late to turn it around.' I got in touch with my attorney and he helped to get her into court-reporting school. She finished. Now she has a job and she can take care of her little girl. She doesn't have to go home and be berated.

"I feel like I've been blessed in my life. It helps to give back.

"I'm a paradox. I'm sure I'm one in a million. People say, how can you go from being a stripper to doing all this volunteer work.

"I want to change that stereotype. Not all strippers are bad.

"That's what people don't understand about Dee. 'Oh G-d, she was a whore. She slept with people for money.' But there were so many sides to her and to people. Just like my work with animals.

"We have a big thing at my hospital with pets. Pet therapy for the children and people who are really ill. We have a floor for terminally ill people."

If I were a patient, I'd find it discouraging to learn I was being moved to the "Terminally Ill Floor."

Lisa: "It's just the light of their life to see a dog come in. To see someone smile who's sick. A lot of the time I work with cancer cells. To know that something horrible is going on in that person's body and being able to walk in the room and see them smiling."