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Islam Means Surrender Who is this mysterious Christian blonde (Heidi Peterson) who found comfort in the arms of Islam? Heidi Heidi Heidi Heidi Heidi Heidi Heidi I meet her at World Modeling Tuesday afternoon, July 12, 2005. A 5'9" (34C-25-35) Swedish-American woman named Heidi (stage name Natasha) walks in. She has the high-pitched voice of an eight-year old. She says she did one porn movie a year ago but doesn't remember any of the details. She says she's "fresh meat." I interview Heidi for 33-minutes, squished next to her on the couch so that we look like a couple. "What made you want to get into the porn industry?" Heidi: "I couldn't find a job. "The thing I like about the porn industry is that it makes you keep yourself up, your appearance. So it's good for grooming. "I haven't been actively pursuing this. I've had a career until now." Heidi grew up in the state of Washington. She's been in LA for one year. "There's a high concentration of pretty girls here which means there's a lot of employment here. "I used to work for the consulting firm Deloitte Touche Tohmatsu. I wrote a financial tracking algorithm [for a phone company]." Heidi has a degree in Economics from the University of Washington with a minor in Math. "My professor Charles Engel is a genius. He works with solo-growth models. "I wanted to go to graduate school at Georgetown [to study international economics and law] but the chances of my surviving in that dangerous environment [Washington D.C.] isn't that great. I have three friends who went there. Two of them got assaulted." Duke: "Were you a cheerleader in highschool?" Heidi: "No. I was modest. I went to a Christian school. It was associated with Dr. James Dobsen and Focus on the Family. Josh McDowell. I was raised by that school of thought. But now I'm working in porn because there are no jobs. What are women supposed to do? Because of feminism, we have to work for a living." She laughs. "They were teaching us religious propaganda [at her Christian highschool]. They made us watch R-rated movies like The Mission. I'd never seen an R-rated movie in my life but they wanted to teach us that the Indians killed the Christians, and the Muslims and the Buddhists and everyone was trying to kill us. That was our history class and it was really crap. I threw up watching the movie because there was so much killing." She laughs. "I didn't like the school. They were brainwashing me." Heidi say she can't watch porn because she feels guilty. "And it's gross." Duke: "Why didn't you do any more porn after your one porn movie a year ago in LA?" Heidi: "Because I feel morally bad about it. But since this is really my place in society now, I just have to forget about my morals. This is the job of the woman. There are no economist jobs." Duke: "I'd think there'd be a lot of jobs." Heidi laughs. "I haven't been applying that hard. I interviewed with the Federal Reserve. They looked at me like I was a dumb blonde. Even my Econ professor told me, 'You shouldn't be in Econ. You should be in Playboy.' They wouldn't give me a job, so I said, fine, I'll do what you guys expect from me. But I can still do Economics for a hobby. I'll do sex for the career." Heidi won't reveal her age. I'd she's in her late 20s. Duke: "Have you talked to your family about this?" Heidi: "Yeah, right, I'm hiding from my family. "My mom has that Munchausen Syndrome, where she diagnoses her children with illnesses and poisons them. Like Eminem's mom. I didn't know what was wrong with her. She kept drugging me all the time, every type of medication she could get her hands on. She's a nurse. "I got away. Then she started poisoning my [younger] brother, taking him to the doctor and making him take medication." Duke: "I wonder if she's killing her patients?" Heidi: "I don't know. She fakes illness too. She pretends to have cancer and deadly illnesses to make us feel bad for her. "On Thanksgiving she said, 'I have important news. I have cancer.' "Later, I asked her, do you have cancer? She said no. "Well, why did you say that? "Her friend had to have her colon removed and my mom get jealous." Duke: "Your father?" Heidi: "He's crazy too. They got a divorce [a few years ago]." Heidi says her life only got worse when she left her "crazy" parents. "I went to Yemen for a year for Deloitte Touche Tohmatsu. Their headquarters are in Switzerland so they don't have to follow American law. You can't sue them. "I wanted to be an international economist so I was getting experience. "[Yemen] was wonderful and everyone was so kind to me until the US occupation of Yemen. They started a fight with a tribal leader. The tribal leader loved me. The sheiks loved me. They called me the tulip of Yemen. "When the US forces came in, they made a war against [the sheiks]. They tried to kill Abdullah al akbar, the speaker of parliament. He's a big warlord who united the country and kicked out the communists. His son would've made a good husband." Heidi peals off in giggles every few seconds. Heidi: "I'm not allowed to marry them. I think the MI5 killed Princess Diana for dating that Arab [Dodi Fayed]. White women are not allowed to date Arabs. "The Americans were aggressive, kicking me out Yemen." Duke: "Why did they kick you out?" Heidi: "Because they said the Yemeni guys are Al Qaeda. "They weren't doing anything. I was doing my consulting. They might've been doing things but not with me." Duke: "Your company removed you for your own safety?" Heidi: "I guess. I got hit on the head [by Samer Abu Thoriah two years ago, Heidi claims]. I had a concussion. I wasn't very safe. I was a victim of trauma and [entered into] the cycle of victimization." This assertion about Samer Abu Thoriah by Heidi is something for which I know of no evidence other than her say so. "Samer Abu Thoriah got money and a visa to Germany [for beating her]. I told the Yemenis that he tried to kill me and that they should kill him. "He sent my life into a downward circle into the exploitative porn industry. They ruined my will..." Duke: "To live?" Heidi giggle. "How did you know?" Duke: "What happened when you went to UAE [United Arab Emirates for two weeks]?" Heidi: "I asked the tribe for their protection. They said I could have a house and do whatever I wanted. But I'm here doing porn. "I want permission from the US government [to return to the UAE]." Duke: "You like those Arab guys." Heidi: "They spoil me because I'm like one of the only blondes in the country. Look at all the gold." Heidi shows off some gold hanging around her neck. "They give me housing, perfume... They drive me around. They give me a maid. "The UAE guys are non-violent. They're not like the other Arabs. They're neutral like Sweden. "If Sheik Mohammed doesn't have control over them, they can easily be provoked into violence. He's a wonderful man. He made a government where you don't have to pay tax. They have a great banking system. Great for money laundering." She giggles. Duke: "You know a lot of dangerous people." Heidi: "Some of them love me. I have no idea why the normal guys don't love me. I want love advice why these weird people are asking me for marriage and I can't get a normal person to like me. I guess if you're a warlord, you want to capture women and make them your wives. I don't want to be with warlords because other warlords are trying to kill them. "I'm not into danger. I'm into being spoiled. I like the money but I don't like the danger. "The State Department sent me a letter -- why don't you apply for this job building democracy in Guinea, a small oil-rich country in Africa with a crazy crackhead tribal leader. I wasn't sure if they were really being nice to me and offering me a job or if they were sending me there to get rid of me. "It was bad enough being stuck in Yemen where at least they have religion." Duke: "Did you marry any of these Arab guys?" Lindsay giggles. "I don't want to say. They can marry a lot of wives. "I would like to be a wife. Then I wouldn't have to be doing public sex acts." She giggles. Duke: "How many men have you been with in your life?" Lindsay: "I don't know. I'm not going to say." Heidi lost her virginity at 18. She giggles. "Dr. Dobsen doesn't allow us to have sex before marriage. But I got taken advantage of by force. Then, because I wasn't a virgin, my family told me I wasn't marriage material." Duke: "How did they know you weren't a virgin?" Heidi: "Because I got raped. I told them. I thought the rapist was going to marry me because I'd been brainwashed by Dr. Dobsen." I don't believe Dr. Dobsen has ever advised women to marry their rapist. "I needed to use a restroom and the guy says, come into my house. He locked me in his house and raped me and he didn't even let me go to the bathroom. And then I thought we were going to get married because he took my virginity. "He was a [highschool] football player and I don't like football players because they keep doing stuff like that, like tackling me and dragging me around. "He went to Rosevelt Rough Riders. They are bad kids from the city. I'm from the suburbs [of Seattle]. Since those city kids ruined my life, I'm a porno star. "No, I'm not yet. If I work hard at it and am really good at my job." Duke: "Did you file charges against the guy who raped you?" Heidi: "No, because my family wants to hide our problems because that makes it go away. They want to make everything [look] perfect because they're Christians. "That's one reason I like the Muslims. If you get raped in a Muslim country, they kill the rapist." Heidi has a list of men who've hurt her who she'd like killed. "Being a religious person, I believe in the law of Moses. I love God with all my heart. I believe in one God. I don't believe in the trinity." Duke: "Maybe you should become Jewish?" Heidi: "I believe only similar to the Orthodox Jews." Duke: "Do you have any Orthodox Jewish friends?" Heidi: "No, I just read about it on the internet. My Jewish friends are all liberal. I'm way conservative. I hang out with Muslims. "I like my liberal Jewish friends but I believe in the authority of God and I don't believe you can just create any nonsense you want. That's why I like the Mosaic law." Jim South pulls Heidi aside. "Are you telling people that you only work for Roy Karch? That's not the way we work here." Heidi is surprised. She's never told anybody she only works for director Roy Karch. She barely knows who Roy Karch is. After the talent call, Heidi and I have a mango smoothie and talk about life. ........... We talk on the phone Thursday, July 14. Duke: "How was your first scene?" Heidi: "I'm not going to tell you because you'll put it on the internet and then people will watch it. I don't want people watching my porn. It's embarrassing. "They're changing my porn name between porns and making it what they want. My porn name is Natasha Jones. "I put some pictures on the internet under the name of Vicki and they changed my name to Vicki. "Men are stalkers. That's what they do for fun. "How's your religious extremist stuff going?" She giggles. "I was talking to another one of my Jewish friends. He said the Christians don't believe in the Old Testament and they're breaking all the commandments. He says they're institutionally breaking them. When God said, don't put another god before me, they made Jesus God. He went down the list. This is what they're doing and they're writing it in the church hymnals. "I said that's funny. He said, it's not funny. This is what they're doing." Duke: "So you did your first porn scene in a year." Heidi: "Yes. I felt guilty. My heart was with you but I was letting another man abuse my body. And you didn't even come to defend me." Duke: "Save your virtue." Heidi: "I was getting violated." Duke: "By how many men?" Heidi: "Ewww. One." Duke: "Was he a black man?" Heidi: "Noooo." Duke: "What's his name?" Heidi: "I'm not telling you. You're a reporter. "I'll tell you about the good things. Too bad we can't do a TV interview with [Heidi's economics professor at the University of Washington] Charles Engel. That I got all this education yet I had to turn into a porn star. How do you feel about that? "You could interview my uncle the important U.S. senator [Dick Durbin from Illinois]. How do you feel that your niece got hit over the head and had a concussion and had to stoop to a life of porn?" Duke: "Can I say that your uncle is a U.S. senator?" Heidi: "Yes. No. They might try to knock me off. I wouldn't put it past them. Did you know that they gave JFK's sister a lobotomy? They cut out her brain. My family would do the same to me. I don't want them near me. "Would you want to provoke that scary incident?" Duke: "No. But I don't think anything will happen. Publicizing you is the best way to protect you." Heidi: "I believe so too. If I'm not in the public eye, if I'm just doing porn and getting abused and being the bottom of the public barrel, getting my face hit with strange men's penises..." Duke: "What did they do to you? I'm mad. I want to go avenge your honor." Heidi perks up. "Oh really? That's romantic. But you can't go avenge me or I will lose my job. The porn industry would really get mad at you for avenging the honor of the porno stars. We have made this industry on dishonor. You've made your money off of us. "The hardest part of doing porn is saying bad words." Duke: "What bad words did you have to say?" Heidi: "I have to talk in a way I hate. I'm not great at acting." Duke: "Give me some examples." Heidi gets breathy: "'Oh, put your c--- in my p----. Ooh.' Then they wanted me to scream, 'F--- me, f--- me, f--- me.' "I wouldn't do it. I'm not allowed to yell at men. It's not nice. "I want to make a newsletter and send it to all human aid organizations that have the same idea as my organization. It's going to be called, 'It's nice to be nice.' It's not nice to torture people. "I think this guy in Washington D.C. stole this paper I wrote called 'The Optimization Of Mediation.' I sent it to this guy and he said he was going to publish it. Then he wrote me some email saying he didn't have time to talk to me. "A few years ago, I wrote a paper about how the Russians were selling arms to the Arabs. You know who stole it? My uncle and Al Gore [published it in the newspapers while Heidi was in Yemen circa 2003]. I sent it to my uncle by email. There's no way they would've known the information. "I wanted to discourage the U.S. government from going into Iraq. I wrote an article about the strategic situation of the Arab countries and how powerful they really are. "You saw my website how I'm tracking the war stuff. The [Arabs] want to defend me and protect my honor. "I tried to get a job at Rand and they wouldn't give me a job. "I changed my name because I'm scared. There's no justice." Duke: "There is a Judge and there is Judgment, but it may not be in this life. "You let another man have sex with you. I can't believe it." Heidi: "I was economically forced into it. I have to earn a living. I don't know how long I'm going to be sanctioned from normal employment. It has to do with how I look. I'm typecast and then people hate me. "If I was bred to be a sex slave for the public, I have to make money out of it. "If I get my humanitarian aid company working, maybe I'll get money. People will support my organization. I could make a TV show discussing cultural relations and helping people resolve their issues like Jews and Arabs. Israel is building a big wall between Israel and Palestine. That's a good way to resolve the issue." Duke: "How did your scene make you feel?" Heidi: "If someone f---- you, does that mean they like you? I really like it when people lick my pus---. I never knew that until I got into the sex industry because I was not doing oral sex. You tend to be modest when you're a religious extremist. You have more boundaries. When I got my puss- licked because I had to..." Duke: "Today?" Heidi: "No. They didn't lick my p---- in porn. I mean in my other sex life. Then I was feeling a nice orgasm that I never knew I ever had before. That's one of the best things I've found in life. "Because of my economic instability, I had to let men do things to me that I never let them do before. "I want to have a talk show. You can be on it. We could do interviews together. How can we get a talk show?" Duke: "Then you wouldn't have to suck cock anymore." Heidi: "You say that so nicely. "Are you good at thinking of strategies? Are you really a millionaire?" Duke: "No, I've got nothing." Heidi: "We need a practical person to help us get a talkshow." Duke: "I'll pray about it." Heidi: "I know that we like to pray to God but... I'm suffering here and I need a way out. Put a message out there that we are theoretically smart but not practically." Heidi says the police like to hang out at her apartment. "I was getting raped by a Turkish guy with a big sex problem. He was hitting me and raping me and trying to get me pregnant and forcing me to be his wife. Then I thought he stole something. He said he stole something so that I would let him in the house and he could come back and return it and pin me on the ground and rape me again. "I called the police and said this Turkish guy stole from me. They said, what's going on? I said he keeps raping me and beating me. "The police said, we're really concerned about you. Why are you calling us about the thievery but not calling us about him raping you? I said because it's embarrassing. "Then the police were hanging out at my apartment for a long time." Duke: "Did they have sex with you?" Heidi: "No. There are certain men in this world you can't have sex with because they're crazy. I told the Persian community and they said there's a Turkish guy in LA who's climbing in the windows of women and raping them." Duke: "How could you talk to the entire Persian community?" Heidi: "Just Persian friends I have. "The Turks are violent people. They commited genocide against the Armenians. "We need to get one of those aggressive Jewish people to work with us to get a talkshow. Gentiles are too gentle. "Have you noticed that women who look like me are not represented in the government? We're discriminated against. That's why we're stuck with being sex slaves. If I wasn't a sex slave here, I would've been forced into a forced marriage in Arabia." Duke: "You'll have to overcome the stereotype?" Heidi: "How?" Duke: "Through hard work and discipline." Heidi: "It sounds like you're repeating something you've heard before. Let's get married." Duke: "Let me take you away from this life of debauchery." Heidi: "If we had millions of dollars, we could get married. But I have to go fornicate with other men and you have to write about it. That sucks. "It would be wonderful to make a talkshow with an Orthodox Jewish convert and a Muslim convert from the sex industry. We'll talk about how to get that woman [Elena "Llana" Trochetchenkova] out of jail. If it wasn't for her, I would never have been able to screw around in New York. Do you know how many women are starving to death in Russia?" Duke: "You don't need to fornicate for a living. You could be a secretary." Heidi: "I can't live off a secretary's wage." Duke: "You need to downsize your lifestyle." Heidi: "I'm living in a crap apartment that looks like a prison cell. I'm not going to live in a bad neighborhood. They'd kill me. "I can go to UAE (United Arab Emirates). They have a 15% growth rate. I can have a normal job and a house and I can respect myself. Here, I have to suck cock to afford to live in a safe gay neighborhood. In UAE, I'm not forced to f--- people I don't know. "They've beaten me down into submission as a porn star. That's the bottom. Instead of leading me to princess status, they've degraded me to a whore. I want to go find my sheik. "If we go to Arabia, we can have everything we want. But we have to obey the men. We have to come home at a certain hour. Or we can stay here and run around as wild girls f---ing everybody. "When you look at blonde women, you think about hookers. "Do you like sex?" Duke: "Yes." Heidi: "Have you ever had sex with porn stars?" Duke: "Once or twice. In a moment of weakness. I didn't enjoy it. I felt tawdry afterwards." Heidi: "Do you say to them, I'll give you an outstanding interview if you'll have sex with me?" Duke: "No. That would not be ethical." Heidi: "We'll start an organization to help people but I'll be the head of it because you're a sociopath. You don't care about people. You don't care about how much you hurt them." Duke: "What was it like doing your first scene in a year?" Heidi: "Oh. You want to talk about sex? I guess that's what they want. I'm not good at this kind of stuff." Duke: "Did he --- on your face?" Heidi: "They insisted that he --- in my mouth and when I said I don't want that, they said, what? Oh oh. I better take that back. They'll ruin my chances of working if I complain. "Then they complained that I put it too far in my mouth and they couldn't see the --- come out. And if they had just told me to put out my tongue..." Duke: "I would never do that to you." Heidi: "You wouldn't --- in my mouth?" Duke: "No." Heidi: "You're one of the nicest guys I've met in America." Duke: "I'm a moral leader." Heidi: "You know what hurt my feelings? Some of the things the guy said to me. They wanted me to pretend to be a married woman who was cheating on her husband. I felt guilty for acting like I was cheating on a fake husband. I told him, 'My husband is going to kill you when he finds out.' Even though I don't have one. "This is the idea: The young guy comes to screw me even though it's wrong. I'm a married woman and the man's trying to screw me in my husband's house. It was really bad. Then they called me slut. Then I felt bad for disrespecting my husband's house. "Then they go, 'Haa!' As though they got away with something. They were acting like jerks. They were just acting." Duke: "When are you going to do a black guy?" Heidi: "Ohmigod. Why are you asking me this question? I don't know my plans. It all depends on how the porn people direct my life." Duke: "It will be funny if I run into you on set." Heidi: "Why is that funny? "You said you don't care about hurting people [that I write on]." Duke: "I care about you." Heidi: "Because you're in Hollywood, you could be lying. You could tell me that so you could maintain a friendship with me and then use that to exploit me later." I laugh. Heidi: "You're laughing because it's true?" Duke: "In all friendships, there are a variety of feelings and motivations." Heidi says she recently went to an art show where a man touched her inappropriately. When she pointed this out, he said, 'That's because you're so pretty and hot.' "The host was really fat and ugly. I said, 'Tell him to stop!' Then I went unconscious [fainted] because I got nervous and then I wanted to kill myself. In Yemen, men are not allowed to touch women. When I was with my Saudi boyfriend, men are not allowed to touch me. But when I'm alone, the guys do whatever they want to me. "My defense system turned into passing out so I wouldn't remember what happened."
Fred writes: "Sir-- This is the strangest web site I've ever seen. How the hell did she ever wind up in Arabia? One does not normally see pictures like this in a web site for an organization with a name like International Research Counsel for Society. Is this some kind of a front organization? What's her story in life? She is hot. Also looks like a pretty odd background. Is the stuff on her web site for real?" Chaim Amalek writes:
7/20/05
Porn star Heidi writes me:
8/16/05 The ex-porn star writes:
A source writes August 4, 2006:
8/29/06 The Terrorist Who Hit Me Heidi Peterson, the ex-porn girl, emails me:
April 10, 2007 Heidi Peterson emails me this week (the header on the following email is "Submission", which is the meaning of the word 'Islam'): I never had help after beaten in arabia. I know white men hate woman and sell them for sex. After that time from rape. I am not sure why should i be different then the ones who killed me to try to kill your guys? Look at the last video I made the rape they did. So much different they cannot respect woman not even a leaders woman or a daughters woman or a wife or a fallen woman. I gave may self now your guys show your sadism. It is now a war We will show ours Our kindness is met with your defilement Now all distruction and distrust unto your people..... we will kill as your guys ravage and rape and kill the inncence I mean that in all heart. Your guys are on the side of satin you side with Lykis and these satins you will die in that hell fire you make achoice now ....I was attacked between the 10-2-2002 attack and the 11 - 6- 2002. I change my name. I sent you the picture of Dick Durbin his wife Loreta Schefer Sister of Mike Schiefer my mother's husband. I saw them right after what happen so they are aware of this conflict, but I don't exist to anyone. Just like all the other woman this country uses and puts in the garbage. With that then you should know I am telling the truth. And my former name was pronounced Mikel, like the wife of King David. Yemen: al-Ahmar's two sons are in prison Yemen, Local, 10/2/2002 Two of the children of the speaker of the Yemeni parliament Sheikh Abdullah al-Ahmar were jailed for investigation at the order to the attorney general following fire exchange which resulted in killing four persons on Sunday in the surrounding of the British embassy in Sanaa. The Yemeni official news agency said on Tuesday that the Attorney General gave orders to jail each of Hussein and Hashem al-Ahmar on charges of attacking the security men while performing their duty and of violating the social norms. The agency added that other children of Sheikh al-Ahmar were due to be brought before the court on Tuesday. They are Hashed, Hameed, Mazhaj and Qahtan to be interrogated over the incident. A fire exchange took place on Sunday in the surrounding of the British embassy in Sanaa when an armed group including children, guards and escorts of Abdullah al-Ahmar tried to break into one security barrier near the building of the British embassy by using force. Link Link ....America is going to loose the war if they don't make serious reconciderations of who they are siding with and who they choose as leaders. Iran is backed by China and Russia. Iran backs the Shites. Who will control Opec? The people of this country don't have much time to change thier ways. And Muqtada Al - Sadr is urging the Iraqi army and police to stop cooperating with the United States and told his guerrilla fighters to concentrate on pushing American forces out of Iraq. Iran's cells are attacking inside Yemen. http://yementimes.com/article.shtml?i=1039&p=front&a=2 Here is the website with everything about yemen including Sadam's family in yemen. http://www.armiesofliberation.com/ More attachments regarding family and Al Ahmar ( Head of Hashid tribe militant rulers of Yemen) doc doc doc doc doc doc doc doc doc doc doc doc doc doc doc doc doc doc doc doc doc doc doc doc docA source writes: What a waste of a wonderful woman. Anyhow, getting a new husband couldn't save her. She's out of porn but has fled back to be a slave of her beloved Arabs. Frankly, five years from now when they no longer want her for the obvious advantage she brings of sin free sex with a beautiful Godless infidel, I wouldn't be surprised if someone straps a bomb to her and she willingly goes as a martyr for them. Your articles did a good job of bringing out her whimsical child like side, voice like an eight year old - I was thinking Marilyn Monroe esp since Heidi's other cause is blonde liberation. Unfortunately the abuse she has suffered over the years and the brain damage from the beating have destroyed her emotions to where it is now impossible to penetrate the shell. She only seeks what she perceives as protection and security as a slave in a strickly "conservative" society. I couldn't stop her. I'm not a follower and only ran into your existence in researching her incredible stories which I now believe are true. I also know you have been in and out of the business since then. But as I said, she seemed to really touch your soul like she did mine, so I thought I'd let you know. ...She lives in fear her Arab masters will find your web pages on the internet as it is.... The first email exchanges were fierce but fascinating. Then I met her and was hooked as if she were a strong drug...You were smart. Despite what she said about the doctor saying the scans showed no permanent injury, I... know brain damage when I see it. I'd love to see the reports and send her though a neuropysch battery. (my own rescue syndrome) That beating she took definitely left her brain damaged in my opinion. Explains the lack of inhibition, literalness, momentary laspes of thought, poor concentration and probably the paranoia and obsession. But in her case it's overlaid by probable abuse growing up and I believe the rape (she now says plural) as well. Dick Durban, that's still her story but not one I tried to check out. But you were right to push away. She is totally self absorbed and an emotional black hole. She acts only to pursue what she sees as her survival against an American societal conspiracy against women, blondes and her, in that order, focused in Seattle where she was raised. Her only escape is to be an Arab sex slave. Her words, not mine. The more rational and functional she became, and she changed radically in the time I knew her, the more emotionally detached she became, then she ran to them and cut the cord. I'm not sure what the heck she did with her husband but he's been clueless anyway. ....As I understand it he's in marketing for entertainment productions but not porn. But she was po'd he wasn't working hard. It was funny she is really a work a holic in her own way, even if what she was doing was irrational to most and had this ambitious plan for him. But he only wanted to sit at home and watch old movies all day. Drove her nuts. ...As I told her when she ran off with the Arabs, i can't blame you - it's your nature. Can't blame a reporter for publishing the good stuff - so I'll avoid it. Said it was an open marriage. But I'm as confident as one can be she'd left that life. She was like a shark swimming in circles when I met her - still trying to do modeling, get into TV sitcoms, applied to and was accepted at law school, seeking a grant to run her mediation company, anything to break through the "discrimination against beautiful blondes" and make money outside the sex industry. Totally irrational, like a shark who, if she stopped swimming in circles, would die. ....Her stories are completely consistent now with what she told you. I only caught her in one lie. She sent me a picture of what she described as a "poor girl raped to death by a gang in Seattle" (she really hates Seattle!) A little quick internet research and the "poor girl" proved to be Cloe Jones, who I guess needs no intro to you. Dead, sure enough... Never batted an eye when I confronted her. Switched her story to it being merely illustrative of the treatment of women in Seattle. It would be interesting to know how much of her tale really is true and how much delusional. But as I said, I think much of if not all of it is true. It would explain much of her. ....Hi Luke: As you can see from the time, I couldn't sleep last night thinking about the potential effect of my speaking to you. I believe the answer is yes. I could tell when you switched to reporter mode, but hope you will treat this as just an update on an old and seriously ill friend and not publish it. In making your decision, consider the following: 1. She has been physically and mentally abused by men all her life and is mentally ill and I believe brain damaged. 2. When you knew her, she was probably dysfunctional and harmless despite your words of perceived threat. Thanks in part to me, she is now fully functional and focused. But her emotions are as cold as stone. 3. You probably don't know it, but she is as smart as a whip, extremely tech savy, and cruises the web constantly. 4. She is under the influence of truly evil men, probably Al Quaida, who hate Jews and view the porn industry as a premier symbol of America's evil. 5. She views you as the personification of the Jewish influence and control over the porn industry and she knows where you live. Me too for that matter! 6. She views the porn industry and Hollywood ( along with Seattle) as primary sources of America's evil culture that is destroying and raping women and should be scourged from the face of the earth. 7. She's been physically and mentally abused by men all her life. She doesn't need any more grief from us. 8. My words had meaning to you only because we both met her and know how serious she is. To your readers it's a meaningless follow up on an anti-semitic fruitcake. If nothing else, for God's sake, don't use the last name I gave you like an idiot. She has an animalistic cunning, unlike me, and would never have given it to you herself. I'm told you are a very religious man. Consider this a mitzva. ...You asked if she was hooking when I met her. No. But she told me she charged her husband for sex to maintain her financial independance! ...She is very pragmatic for a looney, has incredibly low self esteem, and screws with less conscious thought than most women say hello. The speed in which she transitions from one mode to the next defies belief. She believes the whole world is conspiring to deny her a legitimate living so she has to use what she has to survive - sex. It's all in your interview but very disquieting to be the target of it. But she told me she was the mistress of a rich Hollywood lawyer whose name I forget. Also possibly true. Of course she also said she was held captive by a Turk who tried to screw her to death and she had to call the police. Because of the former, not the latter. She's not a one guy or one dimensional gal so it's hard to say which is true or they could all be true at the same time. She articulated a theory to me that if a person gave you enough detail, they had to be telling the truth. She refused to accept my logical refutation of that theory. It could be she practices it. Who knows? ...She thinks you are a pawn of the Jewish Hollywood conspiracy that hates her because of her alliance with the Arabs. Maybe she read your Jews in Hollywood piece. Your comment about them mostly being secular is the same answer I've heard on talk shows of late to the question why Hollywood Jews are not as supportive of Israel as non- Hollywood Jews. Me I think its all a piece with the general Bush Bashing obscession of the left. If George is pro-Israel in the fight, they have to be agin it. But enough of that. Makes me feel anti-semetic even discussing it. But if you want to talk to her again, let me know. Otherwise, we'll just leave the sleeping Heidi alone. When I told her we had written, she was immediately smart enough to recognize you were more a danger to me than to her. ....Eye - but there's the rub! But I'll turn the coin to the other side. I understand you gave up the life and I believe went to Israel for your religion. But you came back. Why? Were you caught in the trap of being not accepted in your new world because of your past? The money was better in porn? I knew you didn't have sex with her. In one of the interviews you actually spoke about having slept with a porn queen or two and gave it up because it made you feel dirty. Strange thing to say to a "porn queen" and in that particular forum I might add. Never could find her movies by the way although I tried to run the screen names she listed. She said her husband tried but couldn't as well. Unless World Modeling has fallen on hard times, she must have been the pride of their stable. I've looked at the pictures they post of their talent now and none of them begins to hold a candle to Heidi. Just a front for prostitution? But her medium is still photography. I'm confident she was a lousy porn film actress despite her looks and her willingness, when she sets her mind to it, to do anything. My guess is she spent all the time arguing with the director, but she'll never say. Maybe she did interview you at the same time. Just from reading those few articles I know almost as much about you as her. Or at least the legend you both put out. |