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4/19/05

Porn Star Karaoke - Black Widow Productions Night

Mallou Mallou, Black Widow Prods owner Richard Williams Mallou Mallou Tricia Oaks Tricia Oaks Stormy Daniels, Wicked contract girl Mike Moz, Lisa Sparxxx Stormy, Mike, Lisa Shy Love Wankus, Jamie L Wankus, Jill Kelly's brother Wankus, Jill's brother James DiGiorgio Kristen, Wankus Lori Alexia Lori Lori Lori Robyn Lori Lori, Genesis Skye Lori, Genesis Lori, Genesis Lori, Genesis Lori, Genesis Genesis Skye Genesis Keiko, Kris Slater Keiko, Kris Mallou Mallou Moses Bennett, Dick Tracy

I arrive at 8:50pm. I see Sardos owner Seymour chatting with a friendly policeman sitting in his patrol car.

As soon as I walk in Sardos, I'm hit on by Robyn. She berates me for portraying her as a fat slut in last week's report. She rests her legs on my lap, wraps her arm around me, looks me in the eye and says that I really want to f--- her.

I protest about my journalistic integrity.

She says I'm a crappy writer and a crappy photographer and I really want to f--- her.

Mike Albo writes: "Well, she's right about two things."

The waitress comes over and Robyn orders a $7 shot and puts it on my tab.

Wait a minute. I'm broke. I work hard to save my pennies and this girl I don't know just ordered a drink and put it on my tab.

Robyn says I will be paying for her drinks all night.

The waitress asks for my credit card. I panic. I make $500 a week and that barely covers my expenses. I spend much of my time worrying about how I'm going to pay my bills. I do no discretionary spending. I never buy drinks (for myself or anyone) when I go out because I can't afford it. I have water bottles in my car and I take long swigs on them before going out. I know that's cheap but I have no alternative.

I tell the waitress I'll pay for the drink in cash.

I resolve to never allow a woman in a bar to get fresh with me again.

This is a lifetime pattern. Women seem to think of men as cash machines. Since I was a kid, girls have been arrogantly expecting me to spend money I don't have on them. I can't forget the chutzpah of girls in elementary school demanding from me free sticks of gum. What am I? Mr. Money Bags?

I step up and away from Robyn, desperate to sustain no more damage to my depleted wallet. I keep her at arm's length for the rest of the night and even though the bar is filled with beautiful women, I hit on none of them for fear they will expect me to buy them drinks.

I'd much rather take a chick to a house of worship than a bar because at least at church or synagogue, the drinks and eats are free and the whole moral tone is more elevated.

Wankus and Kristen give away free copies of Black Widow's Lesbian Pissing 2, a family favorite.

I chat outside with Black Widow Productions owner Richard Williams and his 19-year old contract star Mallou. (Picture)

Williams, who says he has an MBA and has run Fortune 500 companies, owned a talent managment company (WQ Talent Mgm) in Hollywood until 2003. "Reality TV and offshore production, we didn't make any money."

Ric got into porn by placing a resume on Monster.com. Kenny Guarino called him and hired him to run Metro Home Video. Ric quickly tired of Kenny's micro-managing but lasted for nine months.

"Kenny liked that I had mainstream experience and that I had an MBA. I just couldn't work for him. He was the mico-manager from Hell.

"I left Metro on a Friday. Then I got a phone call from the President of Private (Charles Press, now Berthe Milton Jr). On Thursday, he flew out and met me. And on the following Monday, I started work."

Ric was COO (Chief Operating Officer) of Private USA from September of 2003 to September of 2004. Then Private shut down the North America division and Ric started Black Widow Prods."

Duke: "How did you find Mallou?"

Ric: "At the AVN show. I have a partner in Denmark. He had a couple of models that he flew out. She went crazy at the show. We decided for our first contract girl to take someone and develop them."

Duke to Mallou: "How did you get into the pornography industry?"

Mallou: "I started in Denmark. I started working for some photographers. It was fun. I liked the money."

Ric: "Next week we'll be shooting her first solo scene. We'll start her on girl-girl and work that for a while."

Mallou has never had sex on camera, except in her private life.

Duke: "When you were a kid, what did you want to be when you grew up?"

Mallou: "Many things. Vegetarian. With animals. What do you call it?"

Ric: "Veterinarian."

Mallou: "And a pharmacist. And I still want to be that."

Duke: "Were you a good student?"

Mallou: "Not really."

She says her best subjects were English, Danish and History.

Duke: "What kind of crowd did you hang out with in school?"

Mallou: "Only two girls. The rest of school were a whole bunch of bitches. I was always having a competition with this one girl who was controlling. She was a pretty girl too."

Duke: "How old were you the first time you had sex?"

Mallou pauses and looks at Ric: "Should I answer that?"

Ric: "Sure. Why not?"

Mallou: "Fourteen."

Duke: "How many men have you slept with in your life?"

Mallou, a heterosexual who's experimented with girls: "I'd rather not say. I've never told anyone."

It's difficult to get Mallou to say more than about five words at a time.

Ric: "We took her to Ralphs the first time to go shopping. She had to call her mother and sister as soon as she got home. 'You can't believe all the stuff they've got here.'"

Mallou moved to LA Friday, April 15. "The first night I was crying, crying, crying. I called my mom. I wanted to go home. But I stayed and I am glad I did."

Duke: "Do your parents know you are becoming a porn star?"

Mallou: "Yeah. My parents are not pleased but my mom still loves me."

Duke: "What are your ambitions?"

Mallou: "I want to make money. I want to get married. But no kids."

Mallou is attracted to bad boys, tall and dark, with tattoos and motorbikes.

I meet Lori Alexia (of LoriAlexia.com) in the crowded bar and talk her outside for an interview.

She measures (naturally) 34D-22-34. She wears size one. She stands 5' tall.

Wednesday I found this bio on her website:

I am an exotic native of a little Island in the Caribbean's called Barbados. If you're familiar with the Islands you know that it is among Trinidad, Aruba, Jamaica, St. Lucia, etc. Barbados, along with many of the Islands, is very beautiful. The people are extremely beautiful! The weather is never less than perfect.

I left Barbados at the age of 7 and moved to Hawaii until the age of 12. Since then I've traveled and lived many places inside and outside the United States. The first Gentlemen's Club I ever entered was in Memphis Tennessee.

I remember that very night I went in and immediately a girl walked up to me, grabbed my boobs and whispered while sticking her tongue in my ear, "You want a dance?"

After I got the hang of stage and developed my own style I became hooked! I started experimenting with different moves on stage such as headstands, splits, and back walk overs. As I got better I was able to do handstands, and back handsprings.... In six inch stilettos! I can walk in handstands across the stage while bouncing and shaking my ass and then land into splits. I can do back handsprings in six and eight inch stilettos that will definitely rise you to the occasion.

I visited so many cities and worked in a Gentlemen's Club in every city I went to. I finally ended up in North Carolina where I noticed a posting of a Feature Competition for the state of North Carolina. I then entered my very first Feature competition ever and won Miss Exotic Dancer North Carolina 2002! Along with that I won Best Dancer for 2002, and Best Ass for 2002! After winning Miss Exotic Dancer North Carolina 2002 I had to go on and compete for the USA title of Miss Exotic Dancer USA 2002. That competition was held in Vegas during the Exotic Dancer Expo. By the way I placed 3rd, but I did leave with the awards for Best Dancer in the United States..... and Best Ass. I was pretty happy with having the best ass!

Soon after that I entered into the Feature World. In 2003 I entered the Miss Nude USA Pageant for the first time and took home the title of Miss Nude USA 2004!

Her website adds:

Please send me gifts because I absolutely love them!

Lori Alexia Entertainment, Inc. 5482 Wilshire Blvd. Suite #124 Los Angeles, CA. 90036

Duke: "When you were a little girl, what did you want to be when you grew up?"

Lori: "An attorney. Because all my family are doctors and attorneys."

Duke: "What kind of student were you in highschool?"

Lori: "Actually, I was in college. I graduated college [at age 20] with a BA in psychology."

Duke: "What kind of crowd did you hang out with in highschool?"

Lori: "I was innocent. All the guys wanted to f--- me because I was a virgin."

Lori looks around and then apologizes. "I'm always distracted."

Duke: "How old were you when you lost your virginity?"

Lori: "Twenty one."

James DiGiorgio pushes in on my interview. I couldn't control him when I hosted an internet radio show with him five years ago and I still can't control him today.

Jim: "How did the guys know you were a virgin?"

Lori: "Everybody knew I was a virgin in highschool."

Jim: "Even if you weren't a virgin, they'd still want to f--- you."

Lori giggles: "That's true."

Duke: "How did you get into the porn industry?"

Jim: "Because you wanted to lay down the law."

Duke: "Were you a gymnast in highschool?"

Jim: "No. She was a virgin. Gymnasts don't stay virgins.

"What's your ethnicity?"

Lori: "I'm Baisian. I'm British, African and Indian."

Jim: "Dude."

Lori: "I've done about 20 scenes. But I have a really big fan base. Everybody out there knows who I am."

Jim: "I don't know who you are."

Lori: "Because I was Miss Nude America. Shut up! Never mind.

Lori tires of Jim's obnoxious comments and walks off.

I chase after her. "Wait! Wait! He's the rude one. I'm not rude."

Jim: "I'm very rude."

Duke: "Don't worry about him. Talk to me."

Lori: "I went to MTV and I was a VJ with Carmen Elecktra for a year. And then I started housedancing. I ended up Miss Nude America. I was the first ethnic in 40-years to win it. Then I became a feature [stripper]. Now I'm in porn."

Duke: "How did you make the transition into porn?"

Lori: "Because I won feature entertainer of the year [from Nightmoves magazine], the biggest award you can possibly win in adult entertainment so I started doing porn because it was the only place I could go from there."

Duke: "How has it affected you to be a sexual object to so many men?"

Lori giggles: "It's made me more sexual."

Duke: "You're the psychology major. So do a little introspection."

Lori: "Real funny. I don't know. I'll have to really think about that.

"When I got into porn, I started dating a guy in porn, a white guy. He's Hungarian."

Lori has only dated white men. "He was so beautiful. Our relationship ended after four months."

Duke: "What do you love and hate about the porn industry?"

Lori: "What I hate about it is that our relationships are bad. What I love about it is that you get to have sex every day."

Duke: "Don't you get sick of it?"

Lori: "No. Of course not."

Duke: "Surely, sometimes, you have to have sex when you don't want to."

Lori: "That's true. That's a good point. Most of the time you're f---ing somebody you don't want to f---. That's hard. But you also have to look at it as a profession. This is my career. You have to go to work and you have to work with people you don't want to work with. Just like any other job. When you're sitting at your desk, you don't want to be sitting beside somebody you don't like. Sometimes, when I go to work, I sit beside someone I don't like, or I f--- someone I don't like."

Jimmy butts in again.

Duke: "Jimmy, Jimmy, Jimmy.

"So what are your ambitions?"

Lori: "I'm successful right now. I have a feature dancer agency."

Duke: "I hear that acrobatic dancing is hard on the body."

Lori: "It is hard on the body. And I'm the only one who does it. Look at the girls who've burned out."

Jimmy: "Nikki Lynn [who divorced her husband and lost a 12-year old child] was a Nude Miss America. I shot her first scene. She could do headstands and all that stuff."

Lori: "It's different from me. I do them in stilettos. It's different because it is very dangerous.

"She has a smoking hot body. She and I feature danced in Providence, Rhode Island a year ago."

Jimmy repeats, just in case we missed it and failed to be suitably awed: "I shot her very first scene in the porn business."

Duke: "Do you think the sex industry or the regular world is more racist?"

Lori: "Both are racist. It's very hard. If you're Asian it's easier than if you're black. If you're black, it's really hard. I don't care how good you are. I was the first ethnic in 40-years. It was very hard for me. I do things you've never seen in your life and it is still very hard for me. I'm Baisian. If I were pure black..."

Duke: "Do you consider yourself black?"

Lori: "Yes, I do."

Jimmy butts in: "It is very hard for black girls in this business. I know that."

Lori: "I was able to make it because I'm very small and petite. It's not fair."

Jimmy: "The world's not fair."

Lori: "Dude, of course you're right."

Jimmy: "It's not fair that 180,000 have died in Sudan in an act of genocide. But you're not Sudanese. You're safe from that."

Here I am trying to have a nice pleasant conversation with a porn girl I've just met and Jimmy's going off on his genocide rant.

Jimmy: "If a girl's black and she can't rise to a certain level in the porn business, that's not as unfair as a lot of other people on planet earth."

I step between Jimmy and Lori. I turn to Jimmy. "Ok."

Jimmy's perfectly happy ruining my interview. "I'm just trying to add a little excitement to your interview," he says.

Duke: "Do you have a preference in the men you date?"

Lori: "Maybe you shouldn't record this, but all the men I date are white."

Jimmy: "Are fat Italian guys."

Jimmy tells me afterwards: "She's full of herself. Done 20 scenes and she thinks she's all that.

"All these kids think they're reinventing the wheel when they can barely turn a camera on... They all think they're doing something unique, but I shot that same scene eight years ago."

11pm. I stand outside with the smokers. Many of them are shivering from the 60-degree cold.

Genesis awaits the arrival of her new boyfriend. She met him at Sardos last Thursday night. He's a band manager (In Ending) and works for Sony.

She shivers and smokes.

Duke: "When you were a kid, what did you want to be when you grew up?"

Genesis: "A singer. Once I got older, rock. When I was younger, the stuff my mother listens to (country)."

Duke: "What kind of student were you?"

Genesis: "I was honor roll until I hit highschool. I was introduced to marijuana. That was seventh grade. I just started skipping highschool because I hate drama. I didn't want to be around all the crazy people. People were always wanting to start s---. There was fighting.

"My freshman year I went to a bad school. Then I went to a school were everyone was rich and I wasn't."

Duke: "What kind of crowd did you hang with?"

Genesis: "Everybody. I have friends from all sorts of groups."

Duke: "How old were you when you lost your virginity?"

Genesis: "Fourteen. I met him three days before. We were joking about it and then it just happened."

She says she slept with six guys in highschool. "I started [in porn] three days after I turned 18 with girl-girl stuff for websites."

Genesis turns 21 next month.

Duke: "How has all the gossip over the past six months affected you?"

Genesis: "It's not. People will be children. Jealousy seems to be a big problem in the industry. All the girls seem to feud against each other. Relationships are s----- in the industry. Don't do it.

"What's good about [porn] is that I am finally getting a chance to fulfill my fantasies. I am a big exhibitionist. I love to be watched. I love that guys are jacking off to me.

"Fans. I think it's cool to have them. It's a weird feeling to think that there are people out there who are fans. Not so much creepy, but at AVN, I'd only been in the industry since July, and my first scene came out in August, and I met a guy who brought every boxcover I was on and asked me to sign it."

Duke: "What are your ambitions and dreams?"

Genesis: "I'm trying to work on my singing and get it out there, but I have a feeling that it's not going to work out. I plan to stay as long as I can in the industry. I'm taking a course in web design. I'm a big internet geek. I plan to start my own company, like everybody wants to do."

Duke: "How did family and friends react when you became a porn star?"

Genesis: "Most of them know what I do. My mom thinks I only do girl-girl. My dad thought it was cool. 'Get into Playboy.' Everyone one said, do your thing. You're making money."

Duke: "How has your time in the industry affected you?"

Genesis: "I'm finally living.

"I grew up fast before I even got in the industry. I'm on my own for the first time. No family, friends."

Duke: "Does that make you more vulnerable to temptation to do things you shouldn't do?"

Genesis: "Not at all."

Duke: "How do you set your limits?"

Genesis: "I do what I like. I did some things that I probably didn't want to do but I did them anyway because I thought they would be fun or interesting to try."

Skye dated Brett Rockman for eight-and-a-half months.

Duke: "What are the perils of dating within the industry?"

Genesis: "It's difficult because you really can't have the physical relationship that you'd have with someone who is not in the industry, and to me that's important. And that the guy I was dating was way older than me.

"I had a boyfriend when I got in the industry. He made me choose between him and porn. And here I am.

"I'm dating a new guy. He's cool with it. We're having a good time. That might be it."

Keiko: "Seventeen is the most widely used number in the Bible."

Genesis Skye: "Ooooooh. That upsets me."

Genesis's birthday is May 17.

Keiko and Genesis discuss religion.

Genesis just got a new tattoo on the back of her neck. It's an ancient Celtic symbol which has taken over by Christianity to symbolize the trinity.

Genesis: "Don't tell Derek."

Her agent at LADirectModels doesn't like his girls getting tattoos.

Genesis: "I love Derek."

Keiko hates Derek: "He was my agent for five months and he got me four shoots. People would call wanting to book me and he'd say I was a lousy performer."

Keiko's birthday is May 18. On May 19, Genesis leaves for New York to do the Howard Stern Show.

"I just found out that my German penpal isn't dead. He's a really good friend of mine [even though they've never met]. I hadn't heard from him since September. I was afraid he had drugged himself to death."

Moses Bennett and Dick Tracy release Hardcore Havasu next week through XWorx.

I see a couple and I ask them if they work in the industry. They say yes, behind the scenes for Black Widow Productions.

She is the most beautiful woman I've seen in my life. I've seen her throughout the night and wondered about her story.

She's so beautiful it hurts.

She doesn't want to be photographed.

She has classic Italian looks.

She is so beautiful I repeatedly force myself not to stare at her.

I chat with her boyfriend and even when she asks me a question, I force myself to keep looking at him. If I were to gaze for more than a second at her, I might dissolve into a puddle.

He's an editor. She's in advertising.

I walk to my car shivering and drive home. I toss and turn on my floor and listen to Barry Manilow's Greatest Hits until falling asleep. I see too much beauty on my job and it hurts because I want to possess it and it is not mine to take.